inevitable freight train coming down on us. My brain hurt as I discarded one idea after the other. For an ideas man, I was coming up empty.
As soon as I drove up the driveway my muscles tensed even more. It wasn’t just the long ride or the cold wind that lashed my body—it was the conversation that I had to have with Jade. I could only hope that she’d understand and come to the compound with me without asking too many questions. She trusted me, I already knew that, but I was asking for blind faith without giving her anything to back it up.
With a heavy heart, I trudged to the back door and let myself in. The house was quiet except for soothing music playing softly in the background. I already knew what that meant; Jade was exhausted and was taking a nap, as the doctor had recommended. Carrying twins was taking a toll on her frail body, and she tired easily. I couldn’t help wondering if it had anything to do with the way she’d lost our first baby.
I took off my heavy boots in the hallway and padded my way to our bedroom. My heart squeezed when I saw Jade lying there, her blond hair strewn over the pillow, her hands protectively on her belly. I moved closer. Her face was so peaceful, so achingly beautiful that all I wanted to do was crawl in behind her and hold her close. I wanted to protect her, to shield her from any harm.
Her breathing was soft and even, and the corners of her mouth were turned up into a slight smile.
God, how I love this woman.
I went around to my side of the bed and crawled slowly to the middle, spooning into her body. I placed my arm around her and pulled her closer to my chest. She let out a sigh and wiggled her ass until she was pressed right up against me. I smiled as I kissed the crown of her head and then her shoulder.
Her singular scent snaked its way to my consciousness and I tightened my arms around her. Even in her sleep her body melted into mine. We were made for each other.
This is perfection. This is what life is all about.
This was what I wanted to come home to every single day for the rest of my life. Only my life could be cut short. This could end in a heartbeat.
A knife twisted in my gut. How fragile we humans were. Fuck the tough bad boy act I’d put on for most of my life. When it came down to the basics and our lives were at stake, everything changed.
I want to live. Grow old with Jade. See my kids grow up.
Why was it that now there was a chance I could lose everything, I wanted it even more than before? My mind was in a jumble as I tried desperately to make sense of it all.
My arm tightened around Jade. Just holding her brought calmness to my soul that only she could give.
I must have dozed off, because when I opened my eyes Jade had turned and was staring at me, her head tilted back to expose the silky skin of her throat. Her palm was against my cheek and her thumb lightly stroked my skin.
“You have any idea how adorable you look when you’re sleeping?” Her voice was raspy and low. Sexy as fuck.
“Adorable?” I growled playfully. Of all the words in the English language, that was one that nobody had ever used to describe me before. I was many things to many people, yet adorable had never come up.
Jade smiled. “Yeah, adorable , my big bad-ass biker. And I promise not to tell anyone.”
Her hand slipped to the back of my neck and pulled my head towards her. Her soft lips brushed mine tenderly. “I missed you today. Even though Eva and I had a lot of fun, I couldn’t help longing for you. What have you done to me, biker-boy?”
For the moment I just wanted to get lost in Jade and forget about the world. “Hmmm . . . let me think. What haven’t I done to you and what more would I like to do to you—that is more the question.”
Jade punched my bicep playfully. “Oh God, don’t start. You know how wet your dirty talk makes me. If you want dinner any time soon, you’d better not get me all hot for you.”
I took her hand and guided it down my