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friends.”
I feel ashamed that I’m telling him this.

 
    “Do you want me
to go?”

 
    I hope I’m
making the right decision. “No please stay.”

 
    “Ok good. It’s
been a while and I want to see how you’re doing. You look really good.”

 
    This is
uncomfortable. Should I ask him why he’s here? “Thanks Connor, you do too.” I
pause and think about what to say next. Hopefully we can make conversation and
not sit here in an awkward silence. “Hey! You played great last week. Fifteen
points, not bad!”

 
    Connor laughs. I
miss his laugh. I miss him. “Thanks Soph . It was a
good game but Kyle’s been riding our asses lately. Want to tell your boyfriend
to chill?” He says still laughing.

 
    I shake my head.
“I don’t think he’d like that too much.” My voice gets soft and I look away.

 
    Connor laughs. I
miss his laugh. I miss him. “Thanks Soph . It was a
good game but Kyle has been riding our asses lately. Want to tell your
boyfriend to chill?” He says still laughing.

 
    I shake my head.
“I don’t think he’d like that too much.” My voice gets soft and I look away.

 
    He immediately
takes my hand and it surprises me. His warm touch makes me feel a little better.
“Hey if I said anything wrong I’m sorry. I was only kidding about telling that
to Kyle.” I can tell he is starting to feel bad.

 
    My expression
softens and I hold his hand tighter. “No no don’t
worry. We’re just not getting along but its fine.” I don’t want Connor to worry
about me so I play it off as if it really isn’t anything. “Want some of my
salad and soup?” I slide the plate and bowl over to him.

 
    “Thanks I’m
hungry.” Connor starts eating. I watch him eat and wonder what is going on in
that head of his. “So, Adam said he saw you today.” He looks up at me smiling.

 
    “Yeah,” I look
down again. I hate that they talk about me. I’m curious to know what they’ve
been saying about me. How is it in one day I get both Adam and Connor? I want
to think this is the start of our friendship again. I want them both back in my
life. I want to feel complete and whole. I think about Adam again. I think
about his smile and how I feel when he’s nearby. I want him back.   “Alright so what did he tell you?”

 
    “He said you
just stared at him.” Connor’s laughs loudly. “Couldn’t say anything?”

 
    “Stop,” I throw
a piece of bread at him and pout my lips. This is so embarrassing. What else
does Connor know? “It wasn’t like that!”

 
    “Yeah ok,”
Connor finishes eating and looks at me with tender eyes. “You know he misses
you right? We both do.” He tilts his head to the side while looking at me. His
eyes become soft and he gives me a look letting me know how he’s feeling.
Connor and I have a connection that most people search their whole lives for.
It’s not a romantic connection, but, we just understand one another without
saying a word.

 
    “He never came
after me.” Oh crap. Connor’s eyes grow threatening and I know he’s mad. I look
away. I can’t stand when he looks at me like that.

 
    “He wanted to Soph . You don’t get it.” He slides the plate and bowl away
and reaches for my hand. “Why do you think we’re back? You need to accept that
someone loves you. He wants to be with you. Just talk to him.”

 
    Connor captures
my attention. “What do you mean? If he wants me then he’ll come after me
Connor. We pass each other all the time but he doesn’t stop and talk to me.”

 
    Connor darts his
eyes toward me. “Women are so dense sometimes. He gave you space Soph but now he’s back. Doesn’t that count for anything?”

 
    I think about
what he says. I’m still in love with Adam and now that he’s back, my love for
him only grows . I do want him to know what’s in my
heart. I want to look him in the eyes and have him touch my heart. I want him
to feel my emotions.   Maybe Connor’s
right.