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“I don’t know.” I respond not looking at him.

 
      “Whatever Soph , you’re
the one that’s being unfair.”

 
    As our eyes
meet, I squeeze his hand again and smile. We stay like this for a few moments.
It’s nice to have him around. Connor gets up to leave. “Thank you for sharing
your dinner with me Soph , but I got to get going.” He
smiles, “Please think about what I said. It was good seeing you. I’ll talk to
you soon.”

 
    “You too Connor,”
I watch him leave and slump in the booth. I’m utterly shocked and pinch myself
to make sure I’m awake and not dreaming. The server comes back, “Can I get the
check please?”

 
    “Oh hun your boyfriend,” he points toward the door Connor just
walked out of, “He paid for it all, so no worries.” He gives me a smile and
walks away.

 
    I giggle at the
word boyfriend but I didn’t correct him. It doesn’t surprise me that Connor
paid for dinner tonight. I smile to myself and start to relax. Does it mean
we’re ok again? He’s right. Adam’s back and now we have the chance to try and rebuild
our friendship.

 
    I get my purse
and walk out of the restaurant. The sun is beginning to set. The colors of red,
orange, yellow and light purple light the sky. I love watching sunsets. It’s
peaceful and helps me unwind. I walk slowly back to campus as my mind thinks
about Adam and everything Connor said. If Adam still loves me, does that mean
he’ll tell me or show me? Do I have to make the first move? All of these
questions crush my mind and a headache comes on. I need advice now! I pull out
my phone and call Erin .

 
    “Hey girl what’s
up?” Her cheerful voice makes me laugh.

“Hey. So I just had dinner with Connor since Kyle stood me up.” I know Erin ’s going to freak out and give me more to
think about.

 
    “Whoa! What?” Erin screams.

 
    I continue
walking back to campus. “Yep, Erin he told me that Adam loves me and came
back for me!”

 
    “No freaking
way! Soph ! That’s incredible. You know what this
means right?”

 
    I immediately
stop. I can’t. There’s no way I can make the first move. “What?” I quietly ask.

 
    “You need to break up and get your man! Or at
least get him back as a friend. Do something,
anything! ”

 
    “I can’t.”

 
    “Can’t or won’t?
Are you going to live in your room and block out everyone? You need to live
your life. Life is all about taking chances Sophia. Stop being a little shit
and get moving!”

 
    She’s right. I
know she’s right. I have to start living my life. I can’t hide anymore. If I
don’t do this I’ll lose him again and I can’t have a life without him. I want
to make it up to him. “Maybe you’re right.”

 
    “I am always
right!” She giggles.

 
    “Yes you are,”
amusement in my tone, “alright I’m back on campus.”

 
    “Do you want to
hang out tonight?”

 
    I wish I could
be a normal girl and have a girl’s night but Kyle hates it. He can go out and
have fun but he wants me to stay behind unless I’m by his side. I can’t wait
for this to be over. “Kyle’s coming over tonight. I’m sorry.” I feel bad for
ditching my best friend.

 
    “Sophia...” Erin starts to say.

 
    “I know I know!
I need to figure this all out. Can we talk later?”

 
    “Yeah no problem
honey, just call me later.”

 
    “Ok I will.” I
hang up with Erin and make it to my room. My mind keeps
thinking about Kyle and Adam. I start to compare both of them and Adam always
wins out. My face scrunches and a sharp pain hits my chest. I hate not having
him in my life. I want him to know how sorry I am. I can’t stay away
anymore.  

 
    I feel my phone
vibrate in my purse. I pull it out of my bag and look at the caller ID. Kyle. I don’t want to answer the phone
but I know that if I ignore him, we will fight so to avoid confrontation I pick
up his call. “Hi,” is all I can say.

 
    “Hey babe, sorry
about