Scott werenât behind the rock!
Luckily the smarter part of my brain is studying the rocks while the other partâs whining. I need to slide down to the first bump . . . which doesnât seem quite so easy now Iâm doing it. I hug the rock as I wiggle across: right foot slide, right hand grab; left foot slide. Slip down between the two rocks where theyâve split, catch my breath and study the second one. If I jump and reach high as I can . . .
âOW!â
I suck my finger till it stops bleeding: the left pointer fingernail is ripped down to the quick. It must be called quick because it makes you jump so fast.
Whatâs scary is that if I hadnât been wedged between the two rocks, Iâd have fallen off, because as soon as it got hurt my hand forgot all about holding on.
So when youâre climbing, itâs just tough luck if you hurt yourself. The only thing that matters is not falling off.
I donât know if I can remember that.
Anyway, now Iâve slowed down I can see thereâs another way up to the second rock, that doesnât need me to rip off any more fingernails. I wiggle on my stomach, across and up . . . and Iâm at the other end of Lilyâs cave.
It wasnât just the nose that fell off the mountain.
This end of the ledge, right to the bend, is covered with a pyramid of rocks higher than my head.
But each one is a rock, not a boulder. I could move them.
If I take them down, one by one . . .
. . . itâll take days.
But what else can I do?
The pile is too wobbly to climb. I lean into it and push off the highest rock I can reach.
âOW!â
I shove the rock off my toe and over the ledge. My fingerâs bleeding again too. Maybe I should start lower down.
Sitting with my back against the mountain, I kick off all the loose rocks around the edges. âTen down, a thousand to go!â
It feels good. Iâm getting somewhere.
The easy ones are gone, my legs are getting quivery from shoving, and the pile doesnât look any smaller than when I started.
Thereâs still one big rock at the bottom that I might be able to move. I brace my back and shove with both feet . . .
Iâve done it! The big rock disappears over the side.
Another big one crashes towards me. I fling myself back, my knees tucked against my chest, my head thumping against the cliff wall.
The rock brushes past my toes, smashes onto the ledge, and bounces over the cliff.
The whole pile shivers behind it; rocks roll and settle. But only two go over the cliff  â the rest must have rolled into Lily and Scottâs cave.
8
4:05 FRIDAY AFTERNOON
Crawling back across the boulders to Lilyâs side of the cave makes my hands bleed more, but itâs easier than telling her I canât dig them out.
I thought it was a rule: if you try absolutely as hard as you can when things are really tough, they have to work out.
Thatâs whatâs fair.
Itâs not fair that Scottâs knocked out when heâs the one whoâs supposed to be taking care of us.
Itâs not fair that Lily and I are both sitting with our faces against this horrible door rock but we canât even see each other through the gap. And I donât know why I keep calling it a door when thereâs no way we can open it.
Itâs not fair that thereâs another stack of rocks inside the cave just as big as the one outside, and when the rocks I tried to push off the ledge smashed into the inside pile, they bounced towards Scott and Lily.
âOne nearly hit Scott  â he kind of twitched, but he didnât wake up.â Lily stops for a second. I can hear her breathing, as if sheâs trying not to cry. âRaven, you canât try to move any more of those rocks. If the whole pile crashes in here weâll be buried alive!â
Her words hit my ears as if theyâre coming from a long way away, or sheâs speaking a foreign language; I can