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    I decided to pay Ed a visit. I asked if I could stay over for a couple of days and he said okay.
    I took the 5-hour bus ride, then got into a cab from the bus station. I didn’t want to trouble him to pick me up. We’d head back to our place for Christmas, and after that he’d return to his apartment.
    “ You’re so skinny!” I said, when Ed opened the door. He was in the red Juicy Couture T-shirt I gave him for his 18 th birthday, and shorts. His face and waist seemed slimmer than before, but he looked happy. He grinned and gave me a quick hug and picked up my bag of stuff, and told me to make myself comfortable.
    “ Tea or chocolate?”
    “ Chocolate.”
    The place was, well, messy. But so cozy. Large windows and a glass pane front door let in natural sunlight. It gives the apartment an inviting warmth.
    “ You can sleep on my bed, I’ll sleep on the couch. I tidied up that room but not much else.”
    “ Don’t worry about it,” I said. It was his house after all. “I’ll only be here a short while.”
    “ You’re the guest — you get the best. I put your stuff in my room.”
    I drank the Hershey’s chocolate mix. I figured I’d just carry my bag out later and not budge from the couch. I really didn’t mind. I could fall asleep on the floor too.
    It was around dinnertime. Ed said he could fix us something to eat, he just had to reply an e-mail first. I said okay. I’d occupy myself by checking out how well stocked-up his fridge was.
    In the kitchen, I was reading the labels of some jars that were on the counter (apparently, one serving of 1/2 a cup of pineapple pieces contains 100% Vitamin C).
    I didn’t hear Ed come in. I jumped when he gave me a playful hug from behind. He said, “Whatcha looking at.”
    I turned around, and we stood face to face. We were just blinking, and looking at each other’s faces...and...dear God...I don’t know what came over me...it’s like I was blind all along with Bobby and Kyle and whoever else...and I don’t know whether it’s more a case that it felt so right, or that it didn’t feel so wrong...
    I mean, this was my brother , who got me home drunk from a party once...that I’d had so many late nights with for homework...and many, many discussions about girls, guys, love, life, and everything in between. This was the guy who smashed his ankle in during a soccer match, an event that kept me crying all night, because I was thinking of how painful it must be. The guy who nearly ran away at age 14 and made me worried sick to death, so much so that he came back. The guy I played Lego building blocks with until we both grew out of it. The guy I always tested my newest baking recipes on, who always knew when to back off when I really needed to be alone, who wouldn’t take advantage of me in any situation...and in spite of all this...or maybe due to all this...
    I KISSED ED.
    It was like time stood still for a zillion moments too long.
    “ Oh my god.” I started to babble. I had to save myself, do something. “I’m so sorry, Ed—I’ve just missed you for so long, I mean I didn’t even know until you left and...”
    He was very quiet. I continued, “I...uh...well...”
    I had absent-mindedly been fiddling around with the back of his T-shirt. This time, I let go and wriggled myself away from him. “I must be high or something (though I knew I wasn’t). Sorry.”
    I turned to go into the living room.
    He took a step, came up close, and hugged me from behind again. Not so playfully this time. And kissed me on the side of my neck.
    We looked at each other, and our lips met, as we shared a soft, light kiss. It was so cool.
    It was just one kiss, but it was made up of so many things: Curiosity. Care. Kindness. Sympathy.
    We kissed again. I sensed his...fear?...along with the heady rush of this actually happening. I let him know with my kiss that I felt the same, but that it was alright, that this wasn’t planned, and I still loved him...and that maybe I