Primal Scream (Box Set #1, Taboo Sex + AFF) Read Online Free PDF
Author: Jess C Scott
half-mumbling to myself before I slept.
Dear God, I said. Please keep Ed safe. Please don’t send any hot chicks his way. I know I didn’t say anything, and I don’t mean to be selfish, I just can’t bear the thought of some random slut woman opening her legs for being with him, and I don’t even know what is it I feel for him.
Is this normal sisterly love? Is it wrong to want to be with my brother? Can I help it if I’ll miss him so bad after we’ve been living together since I was born?
I’m not saying I want anything to happen, I’m just saying that I don’t know what I really want, and what he really wants, and whether I know what it is I’m even talking about, and if you’re there and listening to me, God, then please help guide me and Ed in our own lives. Maybe one day, something will happen and we can see where to go from there.
I should have added into that prayer: And God, please help me in defining what this “something will happen” is, even if it’s just to me, so that I have more clarity as to what’s going on in my own mind and heart and body. If you know what I’m talking about, please enlighten me. Because I sure don’t.
PS: When I die, the first question I’m going to ask you, is why you have to make life so confusing. Honestly. Dang.
[Ed / 22 Dec 2007]
i feel like i have just been brought to life first julie was at the doorway with the light pouring in, it made her reddish-brown hair look like it was dusted with gold, and then the pleasant smell of her hair, something like strawberry, and then my knees are on the floor and i’m seeing stars, and it doesn’t end there, and i thought we’d...i thought i’d crushed it out of my life for good... what’s she gonna say and that douchebag Bobby I swear I’m gonna beat him in with a baseball bat if I ever see him near Julie again Julie maybe she regrets it and would rather not know about it and we’ll never speak of it coz it didn’t happen ...prior to this it was like a part of me was dead forever...how do you refuse a relative or family when...she’s sleeping now...i feel undeserving of her... of you, Julie ...do you know? it’s like my past present and future all merge into this mist of a mirage, and the only constant thing is she ...i don’t know what you’re looking for... but I know what I want...and it’s right here I want to be with you for the rest of my life ...people say it’s young love and some will even say that this cannot be love but Love is Love is Love. i want to protect you, be by your side... we already have the same last name ...what difference would it make to people who don’t know us.
we can start a new life somewhere, be escape artists away from friends and family that know us. it’d be the greatest secret and most beautiful lie that we could live life. i don’t want any other woman i’ll be 21 years old in a few months and i don’t know why i’m thinking all this i guess the bottom line is why would you look for someone you don’t know to get to know, when there’s already someone that you do know and that you’ve been close to for so long? ...how can society be right and have the right to say what is right when the majority of them have never and will never even know what it is to be in this position...breathing the same air for so long do you know going away was like leaving a whole chunk of me behind, like departing into a life of ruin but why did you have to come i was doing so well forgetting all the things you used to do
but the one thing i couldn’t get out of my head
was the way you said
“ ed”
that night at kingston’s, not quite so much that you
didn’t really say or do much but because i knew i could have done anything to you and you wouldn’t have fought it and i don’t understand why but that is
exactly what made me realize not to do anything, and
what’s going to happen now oh what does how did tonight happen,
i just, i just...
[Julie : 22 Dec
Dear God, I said. Please keep Ed safe. Please don’t send any hot chicks his way. I know I didn’t say anything, and I don’t mean to be selfish, I just can’t bear the thought of some random slut woman opening her legs for being with him, and I don’t even know what is it I feel for him.
Is this normal sisterly love? Is it wrong to want to be with my brother? Can I help it if I’ll miss him so bad after we’ve been living together since I was born?
I’m not saying I want anything to happen, I’m just saying that I don’t know what I really want, and what he really wants, and whether I know what it is I’m even talking about, and if you’re there and listening to me, God, then please help guide me and Ed in our own lives. Maybe one day, something will happen and we can see where to go from there.
I should have added into that prayer: And God, please help me in defining what this “something will happen” is, even if it’s just to me, so that I have more clarity as to what’s going on in my own mind and heart and body. If you know what I’m talking about, please enlighten me. Because I sure don’t.
PS: When I die, the first question I’m going to ask you, is why you have to make life so confusing. Honestly. Dang.
[Ed / 22 Dec 2007]
i feel like i have just been brought to life first julie was at the doorway with the light pouring in, it made her reddish-brown hair look like it was dusted with gold, and then the pleasant smell of her hair, something like strawberry, and then my knees are on the floor and i’m seeing stars, and it doesn’t end there, and i thought we’d...i thought i’d crushed it out of my life for good... what’s she gonna say and that douchebag Bobby I swear I’m gonna beat him in with a baseball bat if I ever see him near Julie again Julie maybe she regrets it and would rather not know about it and we’ll never speak of it coz it didn’t happen ...prior to this it was like a part of me was dead forever...how do you refuse a relative or family when...she’s sleeping now...i feel undeserving of her... of you, Julie ...do you know? it’s like my past present and future all merge into this mist of a mirage, and the only constant thing is she ...i don’t know what you’re looking for... but I know what I want...and it’s right here I want to be with you for the rest of my life ...people say it’s young love and some will even say that this cannot be love but Love is Love is Love. i want to protect you, be by your side... we already have the same last name ...what difference would it make to people who don’t know us.
we can start a new life somewhere, be escape artists away from friends and family that know us. it’d be the greatest secret and most beautiful lie that we could live life. i don’t want any other woman i’ll be 21 years old in a few months and i don’t know why i’m thinking all this i guess the bottom line is why would you look for someone you don’t know to get to know, when there’s already someone that you do know and that you’ve been close to for so long? ...how can society be right and have the right to say what is right when the majority of them have never and will never even know what it is to be in this position...breathing the same air for so long do you know going away was like leaving a whole chunk of me behind, like departing into a life of ruin but why did you have to come i was doing so well forgetting all the things you used to do
but the one thing i couldn’t get out of my head
was the way you said
“ ed”
that night at kingston’s, not quite so much that you
didn’t really say or do much but because i knew i could have done anything to you and you wouldn’t have fought it and i don’t understand why but that is
exactly what made me realize not to do anything, and
what’s going to happen now oh what does how did tonight happen,
i just, i just...
[Julie : 22 Dec
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