was.
“Subject change. Guess what?”
I tried not to sigh out loud. How could he
have already forgotten we were having an
argument about actual, real things? At least I was
trying. “What, Arch?”
“I met this cute little bottom boy the other
day.”
I sighed into a long descent onto the couch.
Sometimes
my
brother
made
me
insane.
“Seriously? I’m trying to talk to you about real
shit, and you want to talk about some trick you
picked up?”
Archer elbowed me. “I haven’t picked him
up. Not really. He just came up to me all cute and
said he thought we’d met before. And he has this
accent like he’s not from around here. I’m so gonna
get with that.”
“What does that have to do with anything we
were talking about? Like work? Responsibilities?”
I stared at him, hoping to get a response other than,
well, the typical. Should’ve known better.
“You know….” Archer got up and turned to
glare at me. “Maybe if you went out and got laid
once in a while you wouldn’t be such a fucking
drag, you know?”
Maybe. Maybe if I saw that guy again. I’d
been thinking about him a lot. More than I wanted
to admit. Sometimes I thought I saw him in a
crowd on the street—that compact little body, not
tan enough to be a California native, blond, spiky
hair, sweet, dark eyes, sunny smile. It always made
my heart beat all crazy in my chest, and I’d go to
say something to catch his attention. But it was
never him. And since I hadn’t seen anyone else that
even came close to that kind of appeal, I was
alone.
“You know I’m not like that—”
“Yeah, yeah.” Archer made a prissy face. “I
have to be in looove to want to fuck a guy because
I’m so much better than anyone else,” he recited in
his most obnoxious mocking voice.
“You’re an asshole.”
“You’re boring. I’m going to crash. It’s late,
and apparently some of us have to work
tomorrow.”
“I’m glad you’re going.”
Archer made a gesture that I really didn’t
want to know the meaning of and stumble-walked
down the hallway in an odd interpretation of a
straight line that ended with a full but crooked
pirouette at his door, a curtsey, and a less-than-
gentle slam.
Night, Arch. Glad we had that talk.
“OH, FUCK me harder. I want your cock in my
pussy sooo deep.”
I groaned, but not in pleasure. My ears grated
at the obvious falseness in her voice. There it was
again. Those dead eyes, that fake pleasure.
Sadness. I wanted to turn away, but I couldn’t. I
had to watch the whole scene from the viewfinder
of my camera.
“Destiny, why don’t you get on your hands
and knees,” the director ordered. “I want to see
some doggie style for a while.”
Destiny, real name Sarah Colosky, dropped
the act and waited patiently for her costar to pull
out. Then she rolled over and fanned herself.
“Can we get five, Dominic? It’s hot in here.”
“Sure thing. Back in five!” the director
called. Sarah flopped back on the bed, and I took a
relieved break from behind the camera, wiping the
sweat off my forehead. It was hot in the studio. The
place needed better air conditioning. The shoot
was almost done, thank God. I hated them,
honestly. It was nothing like the work I wanted to
be doing—shooting for Vogue
and In Style ,
rubbing elbows with supermodels and Anna
Wintour, but it paid the bills and then some, and I
knew if I wanted to not be living with Archer when
I was forty, I needed some cash in my savings
account.
“Why can’t it be you, Ash?” Sarah asked. The
question threw me off guard for a minute. Then I
chuckled. She was harmless, even if she did
proposition me on a regular basis.
“You know why it’s not me. It doesn’t have to
be you either, Sarah.” We’d been over it. Quite a
few times.
Sarah rolled her eyes. “I’m Destiny here. And
can you really see me making sandwiches at
Subway, ’cause that’s what I was doing before
Dom