is a bedroom and a kitchen and a living room and a basement with a pool table all lined up. People stand in one part and pretend there are walls, and on camera it looks separate. But it isnât really. Jackie is sitting right on the couch, but the cameras are all pointed at the dining room table. Nobody can see her.
The cop is pushing open the doors to the stalls, one by one. Sheâs not behind the doors, though. Sheâs behind the camera. Sheâs invisible.
He kneels down and looks for her sneakers under the stall. Then he opens the door. Door number one, no Jackie. Door number two, no Jackie. Thereâs only one more door. Jackie can hear the scratching already. Her motherâs breathing sounds like scratching. Itâs the only thing Jackie can hear in the whole bathroom.
The floor is shiny. Under the door Jackie sees wet blue light. When the cop opens the stall door, it floods into the room. He doesnât see anything. He says something Jackie canât hear into his radio and he runs out.
Jackie can see her, though. It is her motherâs ghost, in a stained hospital gown, kneeling in front of the toilet, waiting for more vomit to come, head down. Her shoulders jerk up, and she makes a sound in her throat, but she doesnât vomit.
âJackie,â she says, âgo to bed.â The ghost dry heaves. Then dry heaves again. She will vomit, though. Sheâll be up all night. There is always more vomit.
âJackie, I am okay.â
The bathroom tiles look cold in the blue light. Jackie can step outside of things, some kind of magic that makes her invisible, but itâs never easy. It isnât like waving a wand. It costs.
âI didnât mean to wake you, baby.â Somewhere the police run around the building trying to find Jackie. Sheâs escaped! They donât know how, but sheâs escaped. Jackie sits down on the floor next to her mother, and she rubs the ghostâs back through the gown. Her mother doesnât look up from the toilet. She squeezes the rim with her fingers. âGo back to sleep, Jackie,â she says. âIâm okay.â
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Jackieâs father is still at work when she gets home. Her mouth tastes like hospitals. Jackie has a map in her room, showing all of her trees. Itâs huge on the wall. There is a green pin for each tree. She pulls the pin out of Number 10 Osborne Street. There is no tree there now. The first-kiss tree. Goodbye Carl. Goodbye Carlâs mom and Carlâs dog. She puts the pin back in the box where it came from and she picks out a black one. It is the first black pin on the map.
Tomorrow will be different. Jackie wonât let her worries overwhelm her. She knows what to say to Ann. And this time sheâll say it: âWould you like to go on a date with me?â
Jackie puts the box of pins back in the drawer, and sits on her bed. She pushes the pillow aside and lies flat on her back.
Maybe she could tell Ann about her motherâs ghost. Jackie hasnât told anyone. She hasnât wanted to tell anyone. But maybe it would help Ann understand her. Help them get closer. Probably, though, it would just freak her out.
Outside the window, the leaves are moving a bit in the wind. No. Keep it simple: âWill you go out on a date with me, Ann?â
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This is their daily ritual. The ghost leads Charlie and Mitchie down the long hallway. The hallways on this floor are more quaint than the ones upstairs. Thereâs a potted plant on the table there. The tablecloth is cream-colored lace. The ghost stops in front of Mrs. Richardsâ door and waits. Room 135 . Every day. Charlie knocks. The door opens, and here comes Mrs. Richards, laundry basket in hand.
âCharles,â Mrs. Richards says, âthat dog of yours was barking again last night.â
The ghost is staring up at her, its face expressionless. It lifts its head under one arm, and raises its other hand to point. Now,
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