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TONY THE BOY
THE RESCUE BEAST
TÃo notices my mood.
He invites me to talk, but I donât feel
ready, so he takes me with him
out to the woods, where I help him
by hiding for his search-and-rescue team
of volunteer handlers and their dogs.
Hiding offers me a strange escape
from feeling cheated by life,
even though the dog handlers call me
a volunteer victim.
The way they say it, victim sounds so useful,
because it means that when I hide
in the forest, all the dogs have a chance
to practice finding a real victim.
There are all sorts of complicated
training exercises, but the simplest
is the first one every SAR dog learns:
a runaway.
All I have to do is race away
from a dog as it watches me.
The handler holds on to its collar
so it canât follow until Iâve vanished
behind a tree or a boulder.
Once Iâm out of sight, the dog
is turned loose, and the handler
shouts, Find!
The eager dog rushes
to do his playful
hide-and-seek work,
running to my hiding place
so that he can receive
two rewardsâhis handlerâs praise
and a treat, or a toy.
Even the most experienced dogs
love to do runaways
just for fun,
but they also need
more difficult problems.
Itâs like theyâre doing math,
and they already know fractions,
percentages, and word problems,
so now they have to move on
and try to master
prealgebra.
Dogs donât separate reality
from fantasy. Itâs all the same,
all work, all play. Imagine a world
where homework is fun. Thatâs
a dogâs world. Just thinking about it
encourages me. Maybe thereâs hope
for a kid who hates numbers.
Research for an online article
about SAR dogs
calms me too.
It helps me feel safe to know
that search-and-rescue volunteers
practice all year, just in case
someone gets lost.
Even a stranger.
Especially a stranger.
TÃo risks his life each time he goes out
in wild weather, at night, in rough terrain,
to search for a child or a thru-hiker.
My uncle claims
heâs not brave.
He says thereâs a fierceness
that takes over his mind, giving him
endurance and strength. He insists
that anyone who has ever
searched for the lost
knows how it feels
to be transformed
into a Rescue Beast
thinking of others
instead of himself.
Rescue Beasts are the opposite
of werewolves. Theyâre people
who turn into wilderness heroes
instead of villains.
Thereâs so much to know.
Where do I start? TÃo advises me
to study the dogs, not the Beast.
He shows me how there are two kinds
of searches, area and trailing.
Gabe is one of the few dogs trained
to do both. When he zigzagged
all over the apple grove, his nose
was up in the air, searching for any
human scent, any human at all.
Thatâs called area work.
Trailing work is different.
It can only be done when thereâs
a PLSâa place last seenâa spot
where someone saw the lost person
right before she vanished.
A trailing dog sniffs any object
that carries the victimâs scentâa pillow,
a jacket, a hat. Whenever thereâs a PLS,
Gabe searches on a long leash,
like a bloodhound in a manhunt movie,
nose to the ground, following only one
set of footprints as he sniffs to match
the smell of those tracks
to the scent of the pillow.
Itâs eerie, thinking how easily we
can get lost and how little of ourselves
we leave behind. Sunglasses. A backpack.
Winter gloves. After a week or two,
even the unique smell of a person
is gone. The place last seen is only
fragrant and useful for a few days,
or at most, a few weeks.â¦
Thinking of lost people
reminds me of Mom, but instead
of letting me focus on loss,
TÃo goes into Rescue Beast mode,
showing me how to concentrate
on helping others. On SAR training days,
a bunch of us gather in the forest, and I
have my chance to help the dogs
by hiding.
First, Iâm escorted to a hiding place
by TÃo, who gives