what might be out there. He refused to let himself get away with not looking at the emptiness. But he also refused to linger there.
Yes, yes, what he sought was thereâpossibility. A big word with a big reach, it might include anything. Possibility was just that, and that was plenty.
He got out his pen, pulled paper from Gianniâs printer, and began. The first part was basic. He needed a new name. The surname was clearâhe would take Grandfather Angusâs, Stuart, a clan as fine as Macgregor. Robbie had the first name, too, slapping him in the face, and it was a chuckle. The nickname of the infamous Rob Roy Macgregor had been Red. Hi, Red Stuart.
Suddenly he thought of what he had to do, right off, as Red Stuart. He went to the bathroom, got out his electric razor, and gave himself a buzz cut. Looked at himself. Strange. Hadnât looked like this since the army. Heâd have to grow a beard to keep from looking like a suit.
He looked at the long, shaggy, frizzy locks in the wastebasket. Good-bye, Rob Macgregor.
He ran his hands all over his head. Felt strange.
He slipped off the plastic attachment and shaved his face clean.
Wow, the mirror said. Odd, very odd.
Who are you, Red Stuart?
He sat back down as the new guy and began to list the hundred details that guy needed taken care of.
Georgia? Nora? The band? He would do nothing. They didnât exist. They werenât real. Same for the divorce, the house, the settlement, everything.
Money? Tricky. A new life wouldnât be free. Nora handled all his accounts, so he couldnât filch any funds without her knowing. If he took his half, or if he even took a couple of million, even a few hundred thousand, she would know, and he couldnât ⦠Do what? He hadnât worked it out.
He pondered long and fell asleep without a solution.
And he woke up with one. Grandfather Angusâs money. Grandpa had willed Robbie the equity in his duplex, less than a hundred grand. Robbie had said nothing about it to Georgia or Nora, having been burned in one divorce already. Heâd let Gianni put the money in some Silicon Valley stocks for him, and it had more than doubled over the years. Just enough for a fresh start.
Robbie was missing one thing. A gesture. He needed a gesture to Georgia, to the band, mostly to himself.
Back to walking the beach. He was squatting in a tide pool poking an anemone and watching it spout when the idea came to him.
He spent a day thinking it through. This gesture was right. The next morning he made a phone call. Gianni sounded relieved to hear from him, and promised to be at the cabin by seven that evening, this time with cartons of Indian food. Where he was heading, Robbie didnât expect to find much of that.
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5
THE LIGHTBULB BLOWS
âFirst, hereâs my new cell phone number.â Robbie laid a small piece of paper next to Gianniâs plate. âYouâre the only person in the world who has it. Keep it that way.â
âSure.â Gianni grinned. He tucked the paper into his wallet and looked back at Redâs face. âIâll never get used to seeing you like that.â
âLetâs not live in the past.â
âWhatever you say, Rob.â
âAnother big favor,â he said.
âNo problem. Donât you love this curry?â
âYouâve always said that I should come in on one of your big enterprises. That Iâm too conservative, yada yada. Now Iâm on board. Sell my stocks and give me seventy-five grand. Cash. Put the rest into something good.â
âThis doesnât sound like you.â
âJust do it, please.â
âYou sure?â
Robbie set his chin on his hand, looked at Gianni, and said, âAs sure as I can be about anything.â
Gianni perked up. âActually, this is perfect timing. Iâd like one more person for a joint venture, and itâd be good to have you. Come into the office and Iâll