okay with this?â
Madeline, who had been staring at her reflection, half frightened, half pleased, knowing she still wouldnât give Catherine Zeta-Jones a run for her moneyâbut, then, who could?âjust nodded. âOkay. Sure. I meanââ she gave her head a small shake, watched her curls settle onto her shoulders ââsure. Letâs do it.â
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I AN LOOKED at his watch, calculating how much time it would take to get across town to the Lone Star in time for their six oâclock reservations.
Heâd had it all planned so carefully. Up early, go for a run. Golf with the guys, a nap, some power shopping to locate a reasonably good birthday gift, dinner at six.
Except heâd come home to a note Madeline had slipped under his door, telling him that she might be a little late because she had to go back to the mall with April and Annabelle for âsome last-minute idiocy.â
Ian pondered that line for a while, then tossed the note aside, found the channel changer and surfed for whatever sports might be on the tube the week before the NCAA March Madness started next week. He lucked out with a great game for one of the last divisional tournaments and settled in to watch, one ear listening for Madelineâs footsteps in the hallway.
Not that he wasnât interested in the game on the screen, because he was. But he and Maddie usually watched the games together. Baseball, basketball, football, ice hockeyâanything that wasnât soccer, because she always fell asleep during soccer games.
Maybe, after dinner, theyâd come back and watch the video heâd rented last night. Heâd started to watch it by himself, but only five minutes into it he knew Maddie would love it, so heâd ejected the tape. Then heâd read two chapters of a book. Then heâd walked around his apartment, straightening up, and found one of Maddieâs hair clips under the kitchen table. He put it in the dish on the counter, the Maddie Collection Plate that she raided every time she ran out of hair clips or needed postage stamps, emery boards, even her extra pair of reading glasses. Her sandals he kept in the hall closet, along with a tweed vest he hoped she never remembered she ownedand the crutches sheâd used that summer she broke her foot.
Not that he minded that Maddie, left to her own devices, could quickly have his entire apartment littered with her stuff, because he didnât. He liked that they were so comfortable with each other that they just about lived in each otherâs pockets. Sharing, caring. All that good stuff.
Except now Maddie was going to turn thirty-five. If heâd thought sheâd panicked at thirty, it had been nothing to compare with the teary monologue heâd listened to one night a few weeks ago, wherein Maddie lamented her single state, her ticking biological clock and her conviction that she was speeding headlong into old maidhood.
He was also going to be thirty-five. Did that mean he was racing down the road to old bachelorhood?
Not according to Maddie, Ian remembered, as he looked into the mirror above his dresser, twisting his tie into a neat Windsor knot.
âYouâre just entering your prime,â sheâd told himâaccused him, actually. âMen have it so much easier. Youâll be able to take your pick of womenâespecially younger womenâwell into your fifties. But not women. And especially not if we want babies. Do you know how much more difficult it is to even become pregnant for the first time after the age of thirty-five? And the complications of having your first child after forty? Not good, Ian, not good. Trust me. So Iâm thinking about getting pregnant. I mean, why not? Women like me are doing it every day. Of course, Iâd have to find a donor.â
âYeah?â heâd said, trying to keep the conversation light. âWell, donât go to strangers.â
Ian checked