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if she had. If she’d bit we’d have put her down right there. That’s one way our world and the straight world agree: dogs that attack men have to go.
    But instead I took Lucy to one end of the ring and Deets took Tuna to the other end. Lucy, who had licked my face with a dog’s smile just a minute before, strained to get away from me to head into the fight. The fight is a pit dog’s highest purpose. We have bred them to not feel fear or pain. We have bred them to have wide jaws and a low center of gravity. A pit dog wants the fight the way a ratter wants the rat, the way a bloodhound wants the scent. A dead-game dog wants it more than it wants life.
    On the signal from the referee I released my hold on Lucy. The two dogs collided with a slap and the sound of snapping teeth. Otherwise the warehouse was quiet. The spectators at a dog match are like the men at a strip club. Sometimes they cheer and clap, but mostly they stare on in silence, lost in their own private world.
    In the fight there’s nothing for a handler to do but watch. You can’t teach a pit dog to fight any more than you can teach a horse to run. You exercise the dog, but the dog teaches itself.There are many ways of dogfighting, styles as different as tiger style and monkey style in those old kung fu movies. Some dogs are leg biters. Some go for the head. Some dogs use muscle and buzz-saw speed, while others fight smart. Some just latch onto the bottom jaw and hang on until the other dog burns itself out and gives up. Some dogs are killers whose opponents don’t get the chance to give up. They tear throats and end lives.
    Tuna was a killer. She went for the throat. She had a good, strong mouth that tore Lucy up. She had four pounds on her, enough to bully her into position.
    Lucy was the smartest dog I ever saw in the pit. She rode Tuna around, denied her the killing grip. Lucy turned the overweight bitch into a leg-biter. But Lucy couldn’t get her own holds to stick. Tuna muscled out of them each time. Thirty minutes into the fight Tuna worked herself out of Lucy’s grasp and sank her jaws into Lucy’s neck. She shook Lucy, trying for a tighter grip, and Lucy slid under her, got her claws into Tuna’s belly and twisted herself free. As the dogs repositioned themselves, bloody, winded, I told Jesse to pick Lucy up. The fight was over, I told him.
    â€œAre you fucking kidding me?” Jesse asked. “No way.”
    I could have picked her up then. I should have. But I didn’t.
    It took her another half hour and maybe her life, but Lucy finally broke the bigger dog. When Tuna went cur and we pulled Lucy off her, Lucy was still clawing to get at the beaten dog.
    Tough little bitch. Proud little warrior.
    It wasn’t until later, while Jesse counted his money, that the adrenaline went away and Lucy collapsed.
    If she pisses, she lives. So I need to get fluids into her system. I take out a plastic bag of saline. I stick it under my armpit to warm it up for a minute. I hook the IV up onto the metal stand.I take Lucy’s leg in my hand and roll my thumb around it until the vein is visible against the bone of the leg. I wipe Lucy down with an alcohol swab. I get the IV needle out. I go to put the needle in. I stop.
    My hand is shaking. I stare at it for long seconds. I take a few deep breaths. The shaking subsides. I slide the needle in. I secure it with horse tape. I take the IV bag out of my armpit and hook it to the IV.
    Next I give Lucy a shot of an anti-inflammatory drug, pre-measured for twenty milligrams per kilogram of bodyweight. Next, penicillin, one cc per twenty pounds of body weight. While the fluids go in her, I get back to treating her wounds. I trim the hanging skin to keep the flesh from going proud. I check her mouth to see if she has bitten through her lips. Her gums are the whitish pink of fresh veal. Better. Not good enough.
    I close the wounds. Some bites just get a little powder. I