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with Anne. The two of them listing reason after reason why she shouldn’t do what she had done.
    Sarah was tired of it. They didn’t know anything about how she felt. How could they understand what it was like to be lonely and feel misunderstood? They had found love and even though Sarah’s Daed had died when she was little, her mother had experienced love. In fact, her mother had already had a child by Sarah’s age.
    With the door closed, Sarah lay on her bed and began to cry into her pillow. Why were they so insensitive to her suffering, to her need for privacy? The day had started so full of hope for her but between Jacob’s reaction about her dolls and now her familye finding them, Sarah wondered what else Gott had in store for her. She had thought her life was finally turning around. That love and success were coming to her but nee, she was being teased. Her secret doll chest was the most precious thing she owned, because it was hers and only she know what it represented to her. Her pride and joy, her dolls with faces, the keepers of her secrets, her fears but it was gone now. Taken away from her. They could never mean the same things to her again.
    That’s what other people did, they just spoiled everything. Caleb, Anne and her mother had the wrong idea when they thought she made the dolls to go against her faith. She had made them for herself, to see a reflection of how she could be.

Chapter 8
    While this commotion was going on, they had forgotten about Ruth. She had heard everything.
    “Poor Sarah,” she thought to herself. Of all of them she understood that some people needed privacy and Sarah was that type. While she was younger than Sarah, Ruth could understand what was at stake. As she listened to Caleb pontificate, she knew he was out of place. He didn’t live there and how dare he come in and act the father of the haus . Caleb, of all people, to chastise Sarah. When she heard Sarah leave and go to her bedroom, she followed after her when she saw the Caleb had gone back into the sitting room.
    “How quickly people forget the demons they struggled with when younger,” Ruth muttered. She knocked gently on Sarah’s door. She didn’t want to walk in without being invited. Sarah had enough invasion of privacy for one day.
    “Sarah, it’s Ruth. Let me in.”
    “Come in.” Sarah managed to say between sobs. She looked up as Ruth came in just to make sure she was alone.
    “Did you see what they did, Ruth? I have no privacy. I’m so annoyed with Caleb.” Sarah turned to Ruth and hugged her.
    “I know. It was only a few years ago he was planning to leave but then stayed because of Anne. He’s like the old folk who go on Rumspringa and then forget how to have fun or that they had fun themselves. I know you have no issue with being Amish, Sarah. They didn’t seem to get that. From what I could see, the dolls looked very well made. Why did you make them with faces?” Ruth asked.
    “ Ach , Ruth, I hate the way I look. If I had been pretty then I could have found love and be married by now. Instead, I make dolls. They are the only thing I make that brings me pleasure. You should see how pretty they are with blond hair and blue eyes.”
    “Do you think you make them because you think blond and blue eyed girls are pretty?” Sarah looked at Ruth.
    “What do you mean?” What Ruth was saying made her curious.
    “I think you have struggled with your confidence Sarah. Your sewing skills bring you some confidence and you know your Amish dolls sell the best.” Ruth looked at Sarah, everyone knew that Ruth’s dolls were the best sellers. Jacob’s daed told everyone he met about how talented Sarah was.
    “But somehow, you can’t accept this and you turned to making what you think you should look like. But if only you saw yourself as I see you, Sarah. You are so beautiful. Your dark hair and blue eyes, you are so striking. But when you don’t like yourself, it changes a person. I think you’ve built a