daddy,â she said, as she locked the door.
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FOR THREE DAYS , Helene and Uncle Ed searched for addresses, found lost insurance policies, and put names to faces. Uncle Edâs house ballooned, full of murmuring church ladies who hissed softly between their teeth because there was no plastic on the couch or doilies on the coffee table. They skirted round freestanding tables with their thumbs pushed out, testing for dust. âA manâs house,â they whispered, as the daughter who was not the daughter put iced tea in their hands and received mountains of potato salad and tuna casserole. Helpless, Helene searched their faces, looking for the blank spots in which to place a smile.
She made sure to stay close to Uncle Ed. Together, their hands reached for Annie bâs basil seeds and old shoes, since they wanted to clutch at more than their sorrow. They tried not to observe themselves as they nodded with grace and composure at women Aunt Annie b had hated. Twelve hundred dollars later, she lay in her open coffin, on view so her close friends and sisters could gasp and see the ill-chosen lipstick she wore and the new dress Ed and Helene had had to buy because Annie b owned only Leviâs. Everyone stared at the stitches showing through the bright pink lipstick, there to hold her lips together; the coroner had had to break her jaw because she had died with her mouth open.
âI think the funeral home really outdid itself,â Helene said, leaving the viewing.
âYou right about that.â As he spoke, Uncle Ed smoothed down his rumpled tie. âBeen so busy with Annie b, ainât had time to ask how you been.â
âOh, you know me. Same as always.â
âYou still working at that nursing home?â
âYup.â
âBeen thereâwhat, three years?â
âGoing on four.â
âTime sho can get behind you if you let it.â They stood together in the parking lot. âHere come Ms. Tilly.â An old woman walked toward them.
âEd, Ms. Annie looked just beautiful.â
âThank you, Ms. Tilly, thank you.â
âAnd I thought her dress was just lovely.â
âThank you, Ms. Tilly.â Ed turned to Helene. âYou remember my niece, Ms. Tilly?â
âIs that Helene?â
âYes, maâam,â Helene said.
âGirl, you done got so big. Last time I seen you, you couldnât of been taller than my knee. You turned into a good-looking girl.â
âThank you, Ms. Tilly.â
âDonât thank me, baby, thank your mama.â Mrs. Tilly laughed into her hand, and Ed watched Heleneâs face darken.
âI donât want to keep you, Ms. Tilly,â Ed said, as he moved farther into the parking lot toward his car.
âOh, I ainât got to be nowhere. So what you doing now with yourself, Helene?â
âJust the same-old same-old. I work at a nursing home in D.C.â
âYou got family there?â
âNo, just me.â
âYou ainât married yet?â
âNo, no, not yet.â
âI got a daughter bout you age. Husband work for the post office. I got three little grandchildren.â Ms. Tilly dug into her purse and pulled out a bundle of photos. âThat thereâs Reginald, Tyron, and LaShay. Last yearâs Christmas.â
âExcuse me for cutting you, Ms. Tilly, but we still got some things to tend to back at the house.â Ed grabbed Heleneâs elbow and steered her away. âIâll see you at the funeral, Ms. Tilly,â he called out.
Helene and Ed got into the car in silence, though Ed tried to jump-start the conversation. âWe got a movie house down the block there. Saw Shaft with Annie b couple years back. Remember me telling you about that catfish place, Tin Tin? Right there on your left.â But Heleneâs responses were halfhearted. Ed searched his nieceâs face as he drove and saw her longing. She wanted mother love, deep
Maggie Ryan, Blushing Books