small child at her side. Her daughter moved slightly, curious to see her motherâs face as she spoke. Only Libertyâs heavy hand forced her daughterâs eyes to the floor. Nevertheless, Queen Ester heard it, almost saw it: her motherâs fumbling. âHe was the one, not me.â Libertyâs voice tilted upward, trying to lay blame for their last fight on Sweets, the fight that made him tumble out their front door in the middle of the night, leaving it ajar.
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He had snuck up behind her while she was dressing Queen Ester. âThat child gone be your undoing.â Liberty didnât hear a word he said, her lips pressed firmly against her childâs belly. âLiberty, you hear me?â She turned her head then, a small smile on her lips. âYou canât keep kissing on her like that.â
âWhy come? Ainât she mine?â
âShe damn near seven years old.â
âShe still a baby.â Liberty dipped her head to kiss Queen Esterâs naked stomach.
Sweets caught her chin, stopping her. âYou quit on that, you hear?â
She had been sitting, but now with her chin caught in his hand she rose, throwing a tall shadow over her husband. âYou let loose, Sweets.â She said her words calmly, as if she were telling a dog to sit. âJust let loose.â
âAinât nothing of mine gone talk to me like that.â His hand whirled back, only to be caught by Libertyâs own fast hand.
âI ainât nothing of yours. Who told you that?â She laughed, an unexpected sound to both their ears, her laughter swollen with anger.
âYou hush up now.â
âAinât.â Her hand let go of his, quickly pulling back to push him.
âYou ainât big enough for that,â Sweets said, struggling under the blunt push of her hand.
âBut ainât I though? Ainât I?â She laughed again and kicked him, striking his left knee. âWho ainât big enough for what round here? Telling me what to do with my own baby.â Her foot rose again, striking the empty air. Sweets, hurt but quick, had scrambled to the open bedroom door and stood inside its frame. He looked at his wife and her gaping laughing mouth. She had grown four inches since he had known her.
âNow I ainât gone get tore up in my own house.â
âYou just keep on out of my way. Or the next time you take ahold of my chin, I ainât gone let you get away.â He heard the menace in her voice and said nothing. But later, in the middle of the night, he left, not taking anything with him except the bulge in his pocket. In his haste, Sweets left the front door open. Now, Liberty stood before the door, knowing that her husband was not coming back. That make three of them, she thought: Mama, Daddy, and Sweets. Two out the door and one out the window. Well, donât that beat all.
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Liberty swallowed a knot of hurt. âNiggers got to live they life in threes, I know that much. So I spose leaving and Liberty is through. Cause ainât nothing of mine gone ever get left by me.â Although she had not paused, her voice had stopped fumbling. Queen Ester lifted her head, watching her motherâs face. âYou gone stay with me forever and ever. No child of mine gone have to kiss some baby only to get slapped away.â
Close the door, close it, the small child thought, looking at the anger in her motherâs face, not knowing that she too felt something, a displaced fury that should have landed on Sweets. But with his absence she aimed it at the door, which seemed to look not only thrown open but mocking. At last, Queen Ester pulled away from her motherâs hand and said slowly, âAinât we ought to close the door?â
Liberty smiled at her daughterâs full-grown voice. Mama and baby both, she thought, reaching for the knob.
âThere goes your son-of-a-bitch
Carole E. Barrowman, John Barrowman