take a glance at myself in the side mirror. Thereâs nothing worse than feeling like you look pretty good and being called an ass.
He passes my uke through the window.
âIâll see you Thursday?â he says. âIâm still tripped out youâre moving in with Whitney West.â
âYeah, tell me about it,â I say.
âI havenât cooked with you in a while,â my mom says. âBring me some of that eggplant, and weâll Iron Chef it up.â
I cringe.
âSounds good,â Danny says. He puts his hand out for our farewell shake, which is more like a slap than a grip, then he walks out to the busy road and puts his hand out to stop traffic so my mom can back out. Only Danny could stop traffic so quickly.
We wave good-bye and get back on the road.
âYou guys are so cute,â my mom says.
âStop it,â I say. I force down a smile. Iâll always be a little donkey in his eyes.
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We drive in silence to Kahala, listening to music turned up loud. We have the same tastes: Gillian Welch, the Roots, Gabby and Cyril Pahinui, Graham Nash, plus random pop songs on the radio. Sheâs okay like that.
She turns on Hunakai, the beginning of our new neighborhood, and I pretend not to look, but I see everything. The landscaping, the mailboxes, the lack of people walking their dogs or doing their own lawns or washing their cars. Some homes are laughably hideous, gold gates with blue metal dolphin fixtures, block-long driveway entrances; they make statements I canât quite decipher, yet they all seem to say,
Look at me, but
donât come close.
I donât have an angry, simplistic distaste for peoplewith moneyâI like it, want it, need itâbut some people sure spend it in weird ways.
âGrandigross,â I say.
âNo kidding,â she says.
We move into a nicer section. Some of the large homes sit next to old and small ones that havenât been torn down and resurrected. While these little ones are perfectly nice, in comparison to their fellow remodels, they look neglected. I guess itâs like those shots showing the before and after, the after automatically making the before a failure.
Itâs not as though I havenât been to Kahala, even though Iâm looking around like a total gaper. I surf at Diamond Head with Danny, but itâs different this time. Iâm nervous, and this nervousness is tinged with excitement and undue pride, like Iâm a better person for living here.
âYouâre a good sport,â my mom says.
âYeah, yeah,â I say. âIâll live.â
She turns on Aukai, which is wide and quiet, hushedâitâs almost like no one is here. Where is everyone?
âIâm serious,â she says. âYouâve always been ready to go.â She pats my leg.
Itâs true. The house in Topanga Canyon for her dystopian thriller, the apartment on Stanyan for the utopian (never released) comedy. I was happy to leave both times. Even moving here, she gave me a choice. I could finish up school while she flew back and forth, or we could move together. I chose the adventure, chose to leave the comforts of Storey, of the neighborhood, friends, and routines. Iâm realizing that at some point, I should try to make a life Iâm not so eager to leave.
âTennis courts down that way,â my mom says, nodding to the left, where I see a little kid straddling a bike, zoned out and picking his nose. âTheyâre members of Waialae. Melanie said she could sign you up for lessons if you wanted.â
âWhy would I want tennis lessons? Thatâs the stupidest thing Iâve ever heard.â
My mom clears her throat. I hate when she pushes things on me or tries to guide me to something I may have done on my own. Itâs annoyingâlike when she sees someone she knows, and before I get the words out, she tells me to say hello.
âGrandpa