never wanted to, Andy.â
âWhy not?â
âI donât want to kill.â
âOn a moral basis, Monte?â
âI donât know. I never thought about it very much.â
âEverything lives and dies, Monte. Thatâs the definition of life. Youâre the hunter or the hunted. But in the hunt and in the kill, there is a kind of exultation. Itâs a moment of passion. How many moments of passion does life give you?â
âIâm just the guy to ask, Andy.â
âIâm sorry. Think about it?â
âIâll think about it.â
âGet some sleep. Weâll talk tomorrow.â
9
I walked home through a city of beginning dawn. The night workers were coming home, but the day workers had not yet appeared. Like myself, the night people were drawn and tired. I tried to remember what kind of deer one would find in Scotland. Would they be fallow deer? I seemed to recollect out of my boyhood reading that Robin Hood killed the fallow deer. Or was it the red deer? Was fallow a name of a species or simply a color? Would they be white deer or yellow deer? I made a note of that in the woolly drift of my thoughts and promised myself that I would ask Andy about it the following day.
Fortunately, we had no doorman. I let myself in with the common key, used the self-service elevator, and entered the four-room apartment that I called home. She wasnât there. I got out of my clothes, crawled under the covers and slept. It was a rotten sleep, filled with bad dreams, but I slept.
And then the phone rang. I heard Lizâs voice. âMonteâfor Christâs sake, will you get that phone!â
I looked at my watch: it said four oâclock, and since the room was filled with daylight, it was obviously four oâclock in the afternoon. I tried to fix the day, while the phone rang a third and a fourth time.
âWill you get that son-of-a-bitch phone!â
Andy had come in on Fridayâtwo oâclock in the afternoon on Fridayâso this was Saturday.
âGod damn you!â
Usually a phone will stop after three or four rings. I picked this up on the seventh ring. I was still half asleep, but when I heard Andyâs voice, I became alert. His voice was tense and hard, and he apologized for waking me, but only to get that aside.
âWhat is it, Andy?â
âIâm in trouble,â he said. âI am in damn big trouble, Monte.â
âWhere are you?â
âIn the phone booth at the St. Regis. In the King Cole room. You know the booth at the far end of the room?â
I couldnât see how it mattered where the phone booth was, but I told him I knew.
âThatâs where I am. In the phone booth.â
âAll right. Just take it easy.â I could not have seen myself telling Andy Bell to take it easy, but neither could I have anticipated that a time would come when I would hear this kind of tension and anxiety in Andy Bellâs voice.
âMonte, Iâm being hunted.â
âWhat?â
Suddenly, his voice became quiet and controlled. âYou heard me, Monte. I am being hunted.â
âHow do you know?â
âMonte, goddam it, I am a hunter. I know.â
âWhen did it start?â
âTwo hours agoâwhen I left the Carlyle.â
âAre you all right where you are?â
âI think so. I think I broke clear. But I have to talk to you about this. I have to talk to someone I can trust. I can trust you.â
âAnyone recognize you thereâat the bar, I mean?â
âNo. I suppose thatâs a blow. Funny, I sit here, and under everything else I am scared shitless the way I was never scared before, and still I can feel the bruises on my ego because no one recognized me.â
âYouâve been away a long time.â
âYeah. The bartender looked at me twice. I didnât want anybody to spot meânot now. Then he apologized. He thought I was Burt