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which was indeed a good thing as she was no
virgin and she did not want anyone checking the sheets too closely as some were
want to do.   She and John would be
left to quietly begin their new life together.
    After seeing her family off, Eirian
checked in with Nanny to assure that the children had been fed and were
napping.   “Nanny, I am so grateful
that you are here.   I cannot tell
you how much it means to me to have at least one familiar face among so many strangers.   I will look to you for guidance in
raising the children.   Most mothers
are eased into raising children.   I
am to start from scratch, with a ready made family.”  
    “I will be here to help you Madame,
never fear.”   Nanny replied.
    “Oh Nanny, must you be so
formal?   Am I not still your Eirian
whose nappies you changed many a time, and who bottom you spanked when
necessary?   There may be times yet
that you think that it is necessary,” she said with a laugh.
    “Aye, and while I may find it
tempting, I do not think I will be dusting your drawers anymore.   That is now your new husband’s
job.”   The smile left her eyes when
she spoke of Eirian’s new husband.  
    “Nanny, are you angry with me for
marrying John so soon after Johane’s death?   I know it will give many a goodwife something to gossip about, but it was Johane’s deathbed wish the John remarry
soon so that the children would have a mother’s love.   There is no other, besides my poor sister, who could love
them more than I can and already do.   I have loved each of them since before they were born.   The fact that I am not that much older
than William will make it difficult for him I fear.   The others may come to think of me as their mother.   It is funny to think that William is
just about the age that I was when John came to Severn Manor to marry
Johane.   Oh Nanny, I pray that I
did right.   Why did I think I would
be the best mother for these children?”
    “I am glad to hear from you the
reason why you married the master before your sister’s body was even cold.   I wanted to believe the best about you
and the master, but it is rather shocking,” Nanny replied.
    “Oh Nanny, if you who raised me
think the worst of me, what will others say?   I think, perhaps, I was rash in my decision after all.   I guess the villagers will probably
shun me as a wanton, heartless woman trying to take my sister’s place.   I know I cannot do that.   John has made it painfully clear that
he will never love another as he loved Johane.   I am willing to accept that if I can win just a little of his
concern.”
    “So you do love him?”
    “I have always loved him.   I think I can fall in love with him
quite easily given time.   It is
enough just to be here for him and the children right now.”   Was she lying to Nanny or to herself?   “I think I shall rest for a few minutes
while the children do.”   She placed
a kiss on Nanny’s brow before she left the room.
    She returned to her chambers only to
find them in disarray.   She had not
stopped to think that the change in her marital status would mean a change in
her sleeping quarters.   Of course,
she would be expected to share the Master’s chambers.   Some how she found it embarrassing to have it spelled out so
obviously to the staff.   It was
natural and normal of course on the surface, but under the circumstances, it
only made her sad.   It did not take
long for her few things to be moved from her chambers to the master’s
suite.   The rest of her belongings
would be sent from Severn Manor in a few days.  
    As she was not willing to go into
the master’s suite alone she stretched on the bed in her old room.   It was beginning to grow dark when she
was awakened by the sound of the door to the Master’s suite being slammed
open.   “What the hell, who ordered
her things to be brought into this chamber,” he exclaimed at the top of his
voice and to no one in particular, as they were the