constantly trying to tell me what to do, how to feel, what to say. Itâs my life. And I want to make my own wayâright or wrong.â
Before she could respond, he added, âIâve been on my own for two yearsâpaying my rent, being a man. And you have no idea how it grates on me to have to live with my sister again, to accept your handouts. Believe me, all I want to do is land a new job and get out of here.â
In her heart of hearts, she knew that when Max moved out, it would be the best for her, too. She needed to let go of him and focus on creating a place for herself in Red Rock.
âIâm sorry,â sheâd said, repeating the apology sheâd made earlier. âI only meant to be helpful. And youâre right. Anthony is your son, your responsibility. Iâll do my best to back off.â
The fight had seemed to fizzle out of him at her acquiescence, so sheâd gone on to say, âIâm trying, Max. Really, I am. Youâre not a kid anymore. And I need totrust you to make the right decisions for yourself and now for your son. But youâll have to be a little patient with me. Old habits are hard to break.â
âI still canât believe that you took him to the clinic without my permission. What did you tell them? That you were his mother?â
âI wouldnât have lied. But truthfully, I hadnât really thought that far.â
Heâd scoffed, and she realized just how impulsive sheâd been.
âI can make a hundred excuses for what I did,â sheâd admitted, âbut Iâm not going to do that. Youâre Anthonyâs father. And youâre right. I overstepped my bounds. From now on, Iâm going to step back and let you live your own lifeâright, wrong or indifferent. Those decisions are yours to makeânot mine.â
Max kept quiet all through breakfast, and about the time sheâd decided that he wasnât going to let her go to the clinic with him, he relented.
âOkay, Kirsten. I need you more than Iâm comfortable admitting. Maybe thatâs why Iâm fighting you so hard.â He blew out a sigh. âIâd really like you to go with meâas a second pair of earsâbut not as my spokesperson.â
A part of her wanted to back off completely and let him handle it all on his own, but after Courtney had arrived with the baby a couple days ago and announced that Max was the father, theyâd both been caught off guard. And together theyâd scrambled to buy diapers, formula, bottles and a little bed for him to sleep in.
It had been almost overwhelming, yet at the sametime, there had been moments where she and Max had actually been a team for the first time in ages. And that had given her hope that the troubles theyâd had in the past would soon be behind them. That they were on their way to becoming the family theyâd been before their father had abandoned them, before their mother had died.
Through trial and error, frustration and smiles, she and Max had been learning how to take care of Anthony.
So the babyâs arrival had turned out to be a good thing, forcing the two of them to work together for a change.
âAll right,â Kirsten had agreed. âYouâve got yourself a deal.â
An hour later, they found themselves back at the clinic, checking in with a matronly receptionist whose badge announced that her name was Millie.
âJust take a seat,â Millie said. âIt shouldnât be too long. You arrived here early today, which is good. We always get backed up in the late afternoon.â
Max shot Kirsten a glance, but she bit her tongue. Sheâd apologized for bringing Anthony yesterday, but she certainly wasnât going to grovel. What was done was done.
When they took seats in the waiting room, Max held the baby, so Kirsten picked up a magazine and thumbed through it. She feared that she was enabling Max again by being here,