were perfectly made up, covered in worn-out comforters and pillowcases. A see-through plastic tub, to store belongings, peeked out from the floor beneath each one. There was a nightstand with a lamp on it between the beds. And the one bathroom was down the hall for the entire team to use.
I thought of the fancy hotel suite that Papi was probably staying in, after arriving in New York on the Marlinsâ private jet. But I wouldnât give him the satisfaction of wanting to trade places.
My cousin grabbed the bed closest to the door.
âSometimes I need to
go
in the middle of the night,â he said. âThisâll make it easier. I wonât wake you.â
âThatâs fine,â I said, pulling the tub out from under my bed. âThis is better than sleeping on a foldout couch. Thatâs all I care about.â
Before Luis unpacked, he put a small framed photo of his mother, Blanca, on the nightstand. He crossed himself. Then, with a click of the lamp, the warm, bright light shone on her face.
Nobody expected my aunt to die. She was completely healthy before getting pneumonia. The doctors said my aunt was so strong that sheâd walked around with it for two weeks doing her normal choresâlaundry, cooking, a weekend shift in the sugarcane refinery. So when the phone call came from the hospital that Aunt Blanca had died, none of us believed it. We thought there had to be some mistake. But there wasnât.
I swear, Luis cried for a week straight. His eyes would water everywhereâhome, church, the funeral, and school. And it didnât look like he had one bit of shame over it either. When Papi left, I cried a lot, too. Only I wouldnât do it in front of anyone. I didnât even want people to see that my eyes were red.
Since then, weâve had plenty of sleepovers together, both at my house and his. Luis would always say his prayers before bed. Like a little kid, heâd get on his knees with his hands clasped in front of him and close his eyes. Then his mouth would move with no sound coming out, until he was finished. I never poked fun at him over it. Iâd just stay quiet and try to be respectful.
âMy son has faith in his prayers,â Uncle Ramon once told me. âI quit praying a long time ago. I believe God already knows what we want. Why should I bother
Him
? Iâll work on those things myself.â
I stopped believing in a lot of things when Papi turned his back on us. And if I ever have any praying to do, I save it for when Iâm rounding third base, hoping to be safe at home plate.
â â â
The cafeteria was packed with more than a hundred players and coaches. We were stuck in a long line of people holding red plastic trays and moving slowly between two silver rails along a glass counter. Older women wearing paper hats that looked like sailboats were serving breakfast. There were scrambled eggs and bacon, waffles, cold cereal, fruit, and tostadaâtoasted breadâto dunk in milk or
café con leche
.
Iâd been drinking coffee for a few years, and liked it most in the morning.
âThat stuffâs nasty,â said Luis as I poured myself a cup. âToo bitter.â
âStick to chocolate milk, little boy,â I needled him. âWhen youâre ready to put some hair on your chest, Iâll let you try some of this.â
âIâve had it before. Makes me jumpy. Iâm hyper enough,â he said, biting into a strip of bacon as we moved forward. âBut I like coffee ice cream.â
As we came off the line, the cafeteria looked like it was divided into four separate camps. Thatâs because the all-star teams were sitting at their own tables, dressed in different colored uniforms. But there were only three players who werenât from Matanzas who had my attention. Those were the other shortstops I was in competition with. The most important one was Chico López from Puerto Padre, our
Eden Winters, Parker Williams