last day of school because clearly he had better things to do than deliver his best friend. That means something when youâve decided to go to war.
I walked home. I cut through the schoolâs playing fields and launched my last ever Code Red onto the track. It fizzled for a couple seconds and then died.
As I trudged through town, a little song established itself in my head, something like this: Whatâs a boy like me gonna do to fight? Who to beat to win victory? My eagle wings will take flight. Iâll rain death and miseryâ
Yeah, thatâs a bad song, sir. I sang it over and over.
I also thought about RC III, this dude who moved to Minnekota last fall. That guyâs a fighter and also he doesnât treat me like an idiot. He was this superstar all-star Mr. Football and Basketball down in the Twin Cities the year before. But his dadâheâs a lawyer who used to play for the Vikingsâis working on that giant murder trial over in Green Lake, so RC III had to move here.
Right. Of course youâve heard of him.
What a shock to his system, right? City schools and big shopping malls and all the movies youâd ever want to see and sophistication and people of many colors and nationalities and then youâre here in the frozen lakes and bean fields with a bunch of blond kids staring at you like youâre from Planet Zorb? Didnât seem to bother him at all.
Yeah, RC III kicked everybodyâs ass in the whole conference on the football field and the basketball court. It was a real joy to play my âbone in the pep band this year because we actually won some games with RC III kicking ass like he did. What was really cool is that he didnât try to blend into the jock culture at all. Didnât try to become part of the school like that.
The dude was in my gym class this spring. For whatever reason, I was the only one he ever talked to. Weâd pair up for badminton every day (if I wasnât orbiting or being kicked out of class).
Iâd say, âDonât smash me in the shuttlecock.â
Heâd say, âIâm gonna smash your shuttlecock all over this gym, man.â
Then heâd take it pretty easy on me and weâd whack the bird back and forth.
A couple times, though, heâd make it hard and I did okay. After class one time, he said, âYouâre pretty light on your feet for a big dude. You should get in shape and go out for football in the fall.â
I said, âIâd rather stick a pencil in my eyeball than play sports with a bunch of skanky-assed cavemen.â
A normal jock like Seth Sellers would kick my ass for saying that, sir. RC III just sort of giggled and hooted. Even though we never hung out after school or anything, we became buddies. He was always really happy to see me in the halls. I got him a summer job at Danteâs Donuts too.
Yeah, Iâm a good guy to know around here!
As I neared my house, I thought about what RC III said, that Iâm light on my feet. I used to be a swimmer (like Justin). I used to actually like gym.
I thought, Maybe you canât ever get skinny, but you donât have to be a tub of turd either. This thought repeated itself. Youâve never been exactly skinny, but you werenât a tub of turd. Come on. Come on. No more tub of turd. This thought gained some traction.
Before I walked into the front door of our dirty house, I sat down on the front step and breathed. Rita Day, our neighbor lady who used to do yoga with my mom, popped out of her garage. She gave me a big smile and a wave and then bounced around the side of the house with a garden bag. Sheâs like sixty but jogs and is skinny and energetic to the point of being annoying. Grandpaâs that way too. Energetic. Annoying.
I thought, Thatâs what I want.
I thought, Bouncy-ass six-pack muscle-head Grandpa.
I pushed myself up off the step and went in.
âYou want what now?â Grandpa asked when I