temples. It was sandy and coarse, and in the last year heâd let it grow till it touched his shoulders. Back when he was young and vain and wanted more than anything for a woman to fall in love with him, heâd kept his hair short and tried to style it in the modern way, but it was so thick it ruined combs and defied brushes. Now he simply used his fingers when it was snarled.
âAnd those slick baby cheeks, yeah, I can picture how it happened. Some dark-eyed Pocahontas gets down and dirty with a square-jawed Irish stud. Quite a mix. I know a guy, a photographer down in South Beach, one look at you, heâd faint. Heâs always searching for that one-of-a-kind primitive mojo. Of course, you probably wouldnât want your picture in a fashion magazine, would you? Post-office walls, thatâs more your style.â
Jacob waited. Polite. He forced himself to smile.
âTell me something, okay?â
Jacob was silent.
âYouâre an Indian, you live in the goddamn forest, commune with the birds and beasts. How come you donât go milk a rattlesnake or something? You gotta buy your poison from people like me?â
âThatâs not a skill I have, milking rattlesnakes.â
âBut you know what I mean. Your ancestors, they didnât have to buy venom. They got their own. Brewed it up, whatever the hell they did.â
âI have my own ways,â Jacob said. âMy own reasons.â
âWhat happened to self-sufficient? Thatâs what Indians do, right? They live off the land, commune with the spirits, rub two sticks together.â
âThose days are a long time gone.â
âWell, youâre a disappointment,â she said. âYouâre my first Indian and look at me, Iâm standing here full of disillusionment.â
âVenom from the forest would provide clues to those who pursue me.â
She considered it for a moment.
âYeah, okay,â she said. âThat makes sense. Throw them off.â
Jacob watched the fish circling the pool, rolling and diving.
âYou know about cone snails?â Shirlee said. â Conus purpurascens .â
âIâm prepared to learn.â
âI found this kid, heâs doing a postdoc down in Miami, studying neuropharmacology. Theyâre producing some shit-kicking hallucinogens these days, painkillers you wouldnât believe. One taste, youâre gone for a week, flying wherever the hell in the universe you want to go, then you wake up, youâre fine, no hangover, nothing. Amazing shit. This kid, heâs hard up for cash, got some kind of habit, poor guy. So we worked out a deal, our mutual benefit. And yours, too.â
âI donât want to hallucinate,â Jacob said.
âYeah, yeah, I know. You want to wax somebody, ship âem to the embalmer. Sure. Thatâs what Iâm talking about, cone-snail venom. Same stuff, different strength, thatâs all. A tiny bit gets you high, a little more kills the pain, and a teensy bit more gets you dead. Itâs all about portion control.â
She drew on her pipe and blew out a stream near his face.
âFirst phase hits like cobra toxin, second phase like puffer-fish venom. Different peptide fractions cause different nerve reactions. Paralysis, numbness, total shutdown of neurological receptors. One peptide targets skeletal muscle sodium, another does neuronal calcium channels. Bottom line, this is seriously bad shit. A little dabâll do. Three seconds your guy is frozen, canât breathe, three seconds later, you got yourself a corpse.â
Jacob nodded again.
âThatâs what you want, then? A cone-snail cocktail?â
âHow much does five thousand dollars buy?â
âWith or without the blow job?â
âJust the venom.â
She drew on the pipe again, but the weed had gone out, so she tapped out the remains into the flowering red plants that filled the beds behind
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