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Chapter
13

 
    I was laying
around having a lazy day thinking about all the shit I had been avoiding since
my life went to crapdom. In the beginning just the thought of facing people
made me sick, things weren't much better but at least I was entertaining the
notion of going to my premier. The first one was about three weeks away, maybe
by then someone would've found my balls and returned them to me. I wasn't
afraid to face the public, I just didn't want to answer any stupid fucking
questions about how the fuck I was feeling. What the fuck? How do you think I
feel? You have pictures all over the world of my girl in a car getting hot and
heavy with some fucktard, not to mention the speculation about whether or not
they fucked. I promise, the first motherfucker that asked me this shit was
getting run the fuck over. Bloodsucking fucks had had enough of me to last me a
lifetime.
    I could give
fuckall about the public's right to know. No one needed to know how much this
shit was making me bleed but me.
    If I didn't calm
down I was going to give myself a coronary. Wouldn't that just be fucking A
perfect?
    I rubbed my
face in frustration not sure what the fuck should be my next move when my mom
came through the door to my sitting room.
    Each of us kids
had our own private suite in this monstrosity. My floor held a studio where I
kept the baby grand I'd had since childhood. A kickass master suite complete
with a walk in closet fit for a Prima Dona, just saying. The whole thing was
done in blues and greens in varying shades.
    " Hello
son."
      She patted my leg as she sat next to me on my
lounger.
    "Hey mom
what's up?" Who knows what fuckery she was up to now.
    "Jane's
here."
    "The
fuck...?"
    "She kept
calling son and I just thought it would be better if we had her come out so you
guys could hash out a plan of action. You have responsibilities yes?"
    "Yeaaaah...Mom...but."
    "This is
the life you chose no?"
    I just looked
at her no reply needed.
    "Tell me
this Gage, are you giving up acting? Do you plan on retiring or are you going
back to work?"
    "Of course
I'm not giving up acting, you know I love that shit." What the hell?
    "Well
then, you treat this situation like a band aid and tear it off fast one time.
The longer you put it off the harder it's going to become. Just get out there
and get it out of the way once and for all. And son please remember you did
nothing wrong, you have nothing to be ashamed of. There's no reason for you to
hide yourself away like this any longer.
    Jane says your
next premier is three weeks away, that's plenty of time to come up with a
strategy. No more hiding away and licking your wounds my boy is made of
sturdier stuff than that." She ruffled my hair like a toddler, Hitler's
little henchman. I wanted to argue with her but what was the point? She would
just end up getting her way in the end anyway. For someone who was so tiny
compared to the men in the family she sure knew how to get her way. In fact
that was pretty much true for all the women, they ruled the roost.
    "Okay mom
I'll talk to her; but I'm not making any promises." What? I could always
try right.
    "That's
all I ask son." She gave me that I'm so proud of you look that was
guaranteed to have me doing exactly what she wanted.
    Fuck me six
ways from Sunday.
      I met with Jane for two hours before she
headed back to LA. As things stood I hadn't agreed to anything major as yet.
There had been a bit of a rough moment there in the beginning when I wondered
how the fuck she could let me get blindsided like that, but she convinced me
that from what her people could gather so far the whole thing had been pretty
much on lockdown until the shit exploded. Go figure, the first time in the
history of the Wood someone was able to keep something under wraps and it just
happened to bring about the destruction of my life. Fuck my life. I guess I
couldn't blame her this time but there better not be a next time.
    She