anyone.â
His face moved in and out of the pale light from the street. He didnât blink. His eyes were locked on mine. His upper lip twitched.
Nothing else moved.
Time didnât move.
âReally,â I insisted. âNo lie. Weâre not going to tell, Darryl.â If only my voice didnât tremble like that.
Did it sound to him as if I were lying?
His face didnât give him away. He still didnât blink. His expression was a blank. As if he were no longer in there.
His lip twitched again.
âOkay,â he said finally. He sighed and wiped the sweat off his forehead with the sleeve of his jacket. âOkay.â
âBut you should get help,â I told him.
I shut my eyes. Had I said the wrong thing? Was he going to explode now? Was he going to hurt me?
He grunted. His body relaxed. He loosened his fists, let his hands drop to his sides.
I took a breath. âYou have to get your temper under control,â I said softly.
Darryl nodded. He still hadnât blinked. âIâm working on it,â he said.
âCan I leave now?â I asked timidly.
His pale eyes shimmered in the dim light. âHey, Jasmine?â
âWhat?â I asked impatiently.
âI promise.â
âPromise what?â
âI promise I wonât kill again,â he told me.
Then he gripped my wrist and squeezed it really hard. And whispered, âUnless I have to.â
part three
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Eden
chapter 10
âE den, what are you doing?â Hope called to me from across the dorm room.
âKnitting a pair of socks. What does it
look
like Iâm doing?â I replied sarcastically.
She could see perfectly well what I was doing. I was hunched over my little desk, writing a letter to my mother.
But Hope always has to poke her nose into everything.
She crossed the room and stood over my shoulder, reading my letter. I covered it up with one hand.
Hope laughed. A bitter laugh. âEden, youâre such a good girl,â she said. âWriting home to Mom.â
I didnât say anything. I knew that Hope didnât get along with her mother. She was always telling Angel,Jasmine, and me such terrible stories about her childhood.
Behind me, Jasmine was sprawled on her bed, her face buried in a textbook, as usual. I didnât know where Angel was. Probably out with some guy. It was a safe bet.
Hope sighed. I started to write again, but she didnât go away. âDo you know what my mom used to call me?â she asked. âDo you know what my nickname was back home?â
âIt couldnât be worse than Fish,â Jasmine groaned. I turned and caught the bitter expression on Hopeâs face. âShe called me Buttertubs,â she said through clenched teeth.
âExcuse me?â I cried, dropping my felt tip pen. âWhy Buttertubs?â
Hopeâs eyes watered up, as if she were about to cry. âBecause I was fat,â she replied. âI wasnât even fat. I was a little chubby. Like I am now.â
âAnd your mother called you Buttertubs?â I cried. âAll the time?â
âUsually just when my friends were around,â Hope said. She turned her face away and wiped the tears from her eyes. She didnât want me to see how much the memory upset her.
In some ways, Hope is very private.
Jasmine raised her head from her book. âShe did that? Really? Your mom called you by that name in front of your friends?â
Hope nodded. âShe loved embarrassing me. It was her only hobby.â
She sighed again, crossed her arms in front of her blue sweater, and began pacing our small room. I followed her with my eyes.
Hope didnât look well. She hadnât brushed her hair. Her face, which normally had a rosy color, was kind of yellowy. And her eyes looked wet and sickly.
She was really upset and worried about Darryl, I knew. I could always tell. Whenever Hope got worked up about Darryl, she started