also, I really wantâitâs strangeâbut I really wantâjust for a whileâI wantââ Her voice trailed off.
âWhat?â Phoebe asked. âWhat do you want?â
Malloryâs fingers reached for Phoebeâs hands now, clasping. Her voice held a mix of anger and wonder. âI want to be your friend.â
Phoebe squeezed Malloryâs hands back. And thenâshe couldnât help itâshe reached out exuberantly to give Mallory a long, warm hug. âItâll be okay,â she said. âYouâre not alone, you know. I wonât let you be alone and in trouble.â
It was like hugging someone who didnât even know what a hug was. Awkwardly, Mallory patted Phoebeâs shoulder. Then, when the girls stepped away and looked at each other, and Phoebe smiled encouragingly, Phoebe saw Mallory turn sharply away.
Was she crying?
âItâll be okay,â Phoebe said again, not knowing what else to say.
Malloryâs reply was low and choked. âNo. It is so very much not okay. You have no idea.â
But after a couple of minutes, she straightened her shoulders and met Phoebeâs gaze openly, clearly, and with determination, though her cheeks were still wet. âIâll get changed,â she said. She even smiled. âWeâll go to your house and do what you say, Phoebe. My friend. Iâll figure out the rest later.â
âWith my help,â Phoebe said.
Mallory turned away.
chapter 4
Within a few hours, after dinner, Phoebe was showing Mallory around her house. Things had gone just exactly as Phoebe had hoped and known they would, once her mother met Mrs. Tolliver and absorbed the story that Phoebe had told her first, privately.
âPhoebe,â Catherine Rothschild had just said, âyour father and I would like to sit with Mrs. Tolliver for a while and talk. Why donât you show Mallory around? You donât mind my sending the girls off, do you, Annemarie? We should discuss those ideas I have, to make your life easier.â
âAll right.â Mrs. Tolliver was sitting upright in her chair with her hands laced in her lap, although she kept stealing glances at the little candy dish of Skittles nearby. âIâm very interested. Thank you, Catherine.â
âMy secretaryâs on her way too. You wonât mind? Sheâs so good at brainstorming and weâll want her to make the phone calls and appointments for us tomorrow. I might actually assign her to you for a while, if you donât mind that.â
âNot at all,â said Mrs. Tolliver faintly.
âRun along, girls,â said Catherine. âCome back in, oh, an hour, perhaps.â
âThanks, Mom,â said Phoebe. She smiled at Malloryâa little sheepishlyâand led her from the room.
Mallory was silent as Phoebe conducted her through the house, room after room after room. After room. Of course the Rothschild house was nothing like the ranch house that the Tollivers were living in, and Malloryâs silence made Phoebe squirm inside with a familiar feeling of helplessness. When they reached the library, Phoebe was swept with a very particular déjà vu.
Fifth grade. The first time sheâd brought Colette Williams-White home. Theyâd been in this same enormous bookshelf-lined room, with its wood-beamed ceiling and twin reading nooks and leaded glass windows and the stone fireplace that a large man could stand up in. And Colette had suddenly spun on Phoebe. âTalk about spoiled rotten Jewish American princesses!â Colette had said, her cheeks pink with furyâand then Colette had burst into tears. Which had forced Phoebe to tend to her.
âWhoa,â Phoebe said now. She sat down abruptly on one of the leather chairs that surrounded the libraryâs central table.
âWhat is it?â asked Mallory.
Phoebe hesitated. Mallory had been so quiet during the tour, looking around the
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