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can feel my body starting to tremble, baby bean must feel it too, because my stomach is doing flip-flops.
    “When you didn’t show I went back to New York. I waited for a week before I called Evan, he just assumed that I was with you. Once I called him , I was having an emotional melt down, he planned a special day for us. He had no intensions of having sex with me that day. But Liam, I needed him more than I had never needed anything. I hadn’t heard from you, I was hurt, lost, and feeling all sorts of fucked up emotions.” I sigh and then take a sip of water, I know the sooner I tell him the better.
    “We had sex that day, I told him I loved him because I do, I mean I did. Then after that day we just became a couple. I still thought about you every day. Not a day went by that I didn’t wonder where you were if you were alive and well.” I say as I sigh, getting ready to speak again but Liam put his finger to my mouth.
    “Lila, can you please answer these questions, I’m going to ask you?” He says as he gets into the floor in between my knees, wrapping his arms around me.
    “Yes , I can answer whatever you want Liam.” I say as I run my hand down his cheek. I know exactly what he is going to ask and I’m not so sure if I want to answer but I have to, I’m the one that fucked everything up.
    “Lila, look at me love. Did you have sex with Evan the day of your father’s memorial?” he asks as he holds my hand. I go let out sigh and a sob escapes my throat. I’m trying to hold it back but it’s not staying in.
    “Ye …Yes, Liam, I did.” I say.  He closes his eyes and squeezes my hands even tighter. He brings both hands to his mouth and kisses them.
    “Okay, now answer this, did you have sex with Evan when you were in NYC? If you say yes , please tell me you used protection?” He says as he sits back beside me on the couch. Oh God, I have to tell him the truth.
    “Yes, I slept with him in NYC . No, we didn’t use protection. We had sex twice that weekend. Liam, please look at me. I’m so sorry, I never meant to hurt you.” I cry, he stands up and walks out on the boardwalk. I don’t know if I should follow, or if I should just sit here and wait for him to come back inside.
    “ Fuck, why the hell do you keep running to him?” I hear him yell. Then he turns to face me and starts walking back inside with his fists clinched together. He has never hurt me, but right now I’m terrified. I take an extra pillow and hold the two pillows as close to me as I can.
    “So tell me Lila, when else did you go off fucking Evan. Hmm, are the girl’s even mine? You apparently don’t know what a goddamn condom is, and neither does he.” He says as he stands next to the kitchen counter.
    “Ju …just the times you know about, in NYC when I packed my belongings to move back home, my father’s memorial, and this year. And, yes, the girls are yours. How can you ask me that Liam? I hadn’t seen or talked to him in months when I got pregnant with them.” I cry out as I can see him getting angrier. I can’t hold back the sobs as the tears started pouring form my eyes.
    “Jesus Li, every goddamn time was unprotected?” he asks as I just cry. How could I’ve be so fucking stupid? “Fucking. Answer. My. Question.” He yells as he punches the counter. I know he is pissed, I can see the veins in his neck bulging out.
    “Yes , every time was unprotected. I slept Evan four times since you’ve been back. I’m sorry, Liam, please… Please, baby, forgive me.” I whisper. I run to him and grab him around his waist. He pulls away from me and pounds his hand on the counter again.
    “Are you just fucking him to fuck him? Because you want him? You want to hurt me? What the hell is it? I never imagined you would do this to me , to us, Lila. Baby bean might be his. There is no goddamn way he is going to destroy us or our family. Do you understand me? No fucking way, Lila Rae. This baby is mine, you hear me? It’s mine,