she’d started dating another guy she’d fallen in love with. Nathan couldn’t remember his name.
It had been so many years since then. Well, maybe not that many, but it was still a long time. Nathan sighed, wishing things had been different. Then he stopped.
Do I honestly wish I’d never met Kayla?
Nathan felt torn. He almost wished that he’d never met Amanda so that the agony of being apart from her would cease. Only Kayla could soothe his heart.
Nathan felt that maybe it was time he finally got over Amanda. She was never going to be his.
Outside class, Nathan waited for Kayla to arrive. He was eager to see her, to reassure himself of his feelings for her. Nathan wasn’t going to let even the memory of Amanda stand between his and Kayla’s happiness.
Tuesday was particularly hard for Nathan. He didn’t have classes, so work was the only thing he had to keep his mind busy. Even then, Nathan just couldn’t stop thinking about Amanda. He had never felt so attracted to any other woman before. The problem was that Nathan felt just as attracted to Kayla. He couldn’t resist her pink lips, or touching her soft skin.
On Wednesday, Nathan used his free time between classes to return to his dorm. His and Ashton’s free time didn’t always coincide, so the dorm was empty. Nathan wanted to Google Amanda again in private. He just couldn’t help doing so.
Think of it as a way to get some closure.
Nathan first went through the image results. Several hits came up. There were lots of photos of Amanda on the Internet. She was perhaps more well-known than Marissa had let on. Most of the photos were of Amanda modeling clothes. Some were candids, and others were of her out and about in New York. There were also magazine scans from the Avon and Sears catalogs.
Amanda’s definitely gorgeous, Nathan thought as he looked at a photo of her modeling spring apparel. He scrolled to another catalog scan. In that one, Amanda was wearing a tanktop and miniskirt. She looked fit, with faint muscle tone. Nathan wondered what her skin would feel like to the touch.
Nathan went back to the main results page. He clicked on the first link he saw. A Tumblr blog loaded. It was Amanda’s own personal blog. Most of what she uploaded was photos and videos, though she seemed to post written entries every now and then. There also were more swimwear photos. Nathan clicked on one of them. It was from a catalog. Amanda wore a purple swimsuit. The top was see-through, leaving nothing to the imagination.
Um…better close that before my PC combusts.
Nathan clicked on the Back button to return to the search results. He then considered going to Amanda’s page on Wikipedia.
Do I want to do this?
That was one of the perils of having information right at your fingertips. It took away all the fun and meaning of letting a person tell you about themselves. Besides, why would he want to learn about Amanda? That was pointless; he had Kayla now. Nathan didn’t need his past returning.
“I’m through with the lecture for today. Make sure to check your e-mail later. I’m sending you all a PowerPoint you’ll need to study,” the instructor said, sitting back on his desk. “You may go now.”
Amanda put her notebook binder back inside her messenger bag. She stood up and followed her fellow classmates out of the room.
Amanda walked through the hallway and took a turn towards the next exit. She emerged outside and continued walking. According to her Movado watch, she had fifteen minutes before her next class.
As she walked, Amanda found herself thinking. And lately, her thoughts had been straying to that guy she had met at the fashion show. Nathan.
It had been three days, and Amanda still thought about Nathan. She couldn’t figure out why. They’d met just once! For all Amanda knew, he lived back in Manhattan. That wasn’t too far, but what were their chances of meeting again? Even if they lived in the same city, New York was enormous.
Under the Cover of the Moon (Cobblestone)