1990
Dear Janice
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W inter is the most depressing time of the year. If you go outside at 5:00, darkness is what greets you. It’s sickening! I love the summer. Summer to me means no heavy coats, daytime until at least 8 at night and no trembling teeth. I can’t wait for June to come around, I was born in June you know. I’ll be a teenager next birthday. I like the sound of that. Not that it would mean any more privileges for me, twelve is really no different from thirteen. I would like thirteen to mean I’m a bona fide teenager, not a little kid! I don’t want to have to feel bad if I get a crush on a guy for example. It would be so great if I could talk to my mom and say, “I really like this guy at school.” She would get upset. I don’t want to be an adult or anything I just want to be able to talk to my mom about new found feelings and things like that.
November 9, 1990
Dear Janice
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T oday in school the assistant principal was talking about highschool and which ones we should pick to attend. I think it’s great we get to pick. It gives us an early start on decision making. There are a lot of choices. I’ve made my decision a long time ago. It’s Bronx Science all the way. It’s a top school and it’s close. My friend and neighbor Lisa goes there. She likes it. It’s her freshman year and she’s already feeling at home. I really don’t want to go to the closest school which is Evander Childs. By what I’ve been hearing about it, only a bunch of hooligans go there. I don’t want to be a part of it. I hope highschool is different from J.H. I hope it’s a more mature atmosphere than J.H.S. 80, I’d do much better. I hope to get a scholarship from highschool to go to a top college.
November 10, 1990
Dear Janice
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R ondah’s shower was today. It really turned out good. This morning I thought it would be a disaster. First of all it was raining. That brought down my mood instantly. We decided to keep it at Aunt Mable’s house. That’s becauseif we had kept it at our house, she would have found out by our decorating and cooking. We got her friend to say they were going out and we said we were just going to stop by Aunt Mable’s. After we were at Aunt Mable’s, we called her friend right before they were supposed to leave and asked them if they could drop something off at the house. When they came we yelled, “Surprise!” Rondah looked pretty shocked. She got a lot of presents. There were so many little clothes and things. She said to me, “I’ll never trust you again.” She was talking about how good I lied. I guess she thinks since I’m such a convincing liar, I’ve been doing it to her for years.
November 12, 1990
Dear Janice
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O ne thing I really miss about not staying home in the days is watching my soap operas. And when it comes to soap operas, I think ABC is the best. From “Loving” to “General Hospital” I’m glued to the set. I guess why I like watching them is those are other people’s problems on the screen, not yours. You grow to love certain characters, then hate others. But the thing is, you like to hate them. It’s hard to explain. I just love television. I’d better start reading some books though. I can’t let myself become a t.v.holic. Right now I’m watching Estelle Getty portray Sophia Patrilo on“The Golden Girls.” It’s one of those repeats that come on Fox at 6:00. It’s a funny episode.
November 15, 1990
Dear Janice
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I feel like calling Ann (my cousin in Canada). I guess it’s because she’s mature and I long for a conversation with a mature friend. My friends are acting quite the opposite. I wish she didn’t live so far away. She’s a real friend to me. It was in her mother’s house that I spent the summer vacation. We has a lot of fun together. She’s 16 and she took me places and introduced me to all her friends and at night in the bedroom we’d talk about the old days in Jamaica. We’d talk about how goofy we were back then compared