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after Christmas, because he knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. I love you more than anything in this world. You are my reason for living, and for the past three days all I could think of was what I would do if you didn’t make it. I would be nothing without you. Ever since you ran into me that first day, I felt like you gave me something I didn’t know was missing, something I didn’t even know I wanted. You are my everything, and if you will let me, I want to spend the rest of your life making you happy.”
    She looked at me in disbelief and I think if she didn’t answer me soon I would pass out. “Yes.”
    Did she just say yes? She did! I was smiling so hard that it hurt. I jumped up and kissed her, pouring every ounce of love I had into it, so she had no doubt how much I loved her. I heard a sound behind me and turned around. Maddy’s nurse was watching us and crying.
    I smiled back at her. “Well , was it as good as the first one?”
    She walked over to me and gave me a hug, then looked back and forth between the two of us. “I hope the both of you have a long happy life together, because you deserve it. And you , mister better stop making me cry on the job, these people are going to think I’m losing it!” We all laughed, and she started to leave. “I’ll let the doctor know that you are up and he will be in.”
    I turned back to Maddy and pulled over the chair to sit down next to her. “How do you feel?”
    “Um, truthfully, like crap. Can you tell me what happened?”
    I was not ready to do this , but I know she needed to hear about all of the injuries, and now I was going to have to tell her about the baby. “Well, when they brought you in, they had to take you right into surgery. They said you had some internal bleeding, which they stopped. Your shoulder was dislocated, your arm was fractured, you have a couple bruised ribs, but other than that just minor cuts and bruises.” Now, comes the part that I don’t know how to do. ”Babe, did you know you were pregnant?”
     
     
    Maddy
     
    Carter knew? Of course he did, the hospital would have told him. I wonder ed if he was happy, or disappointed. Wait a minute, he said “were.” The realization washed over me. Even if the baby survived the accident, I didn’t think it would have survived me getting surgery.
    Oh my God, I lost the baby.
    I started sobbing, because I didn’t know what else to do at this point. I never even got the chance to tell Carter, or see the baby on an ultrasound. I never even knew when I would have been due, or if it would have been a boy or girl. I had a life growing inside of me and now all I felt was empty.
    Why? Why did I have to lose it? Was it because I would have been a horrible mother? Didn’t I deserve a chance to try, a chance to love my baby? Carter wrapped his arms around me, but I felt numb. I didn’t know what to do or how to act. I just wanted to go to sleep and not think, not feel, not remember any of this.
    “Baby, it’s ok ay. We will get through this and I am here for you.”
    I knew he would be, he always was. I just didn’t know who I would be after all of this was over.
    The doctor came in and went over everything with me. He said they wanted to keep me for observation for at least two days, but after that I could go home.
    Nicole, Jason, Shawn, Holly, Anthony, and Carter’s dad all came by to see me , but I barely remembered talking to any of them. I felt like I was just going through the motions at this point. Just trying to make it through the day.
    I hate d that everyone knew what happened and I hated that they looked at me with pity. I smiled at everyone and tried to carry on conversations, but it had all been a blur. The only thing clear in my head right now was that I felt empty.
    When everyone said their goodbyes and started to leave, Jason turned to Carter and asked him if he wanted him to bring back some clothes.
    I took this time to speak up. I wanted him to be able to