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on a blanket that all the Rope kids used. While they were into a lot of heavy petting and engaging in oral sex, neither of them considered that as officially having sex, because they hadn’t had intercourse yet. Alessa always told Rhonda everything she did in the woods with Carl.
    Lying in her friend’s bed one Saturday night after a party at the Rope, Alessa was taken aback when Rhonda asked her, “So when are you going to have real sex with him?”
    “I don’t know,” she replied uncertainly. “He keeps asking me, but I’m afraid of getting pregnant. My mother threatened to kill me, if I did.”
    “Have you had an orgasm yet?” Rhonda asked.
    Alessa shook her head vigorously. Rhonda turned on her side to face her. Then she tugged Alessa’s underwear away to the side and began to caress her between her legs. Alessa started to experience the sensation that often gripped her when she was with Carl. As Rhonda continued teasing her with her feather-soft touch, her friend began craving for more. When Rhonda’s fingers stilled for just a few seconds, Alessa thought she would go insane. At fourteen, Rhonda was an expert. She knew exactly how to drive her girlfriend to the brink of sexual insanity and leave her hovering there. Alessa looked up at Rhonda with crazed eyes that begged her to continue with what she had been doing or she would surely die.
    Rhonda reached down and began to caress her softly again. At the same time, she leaned in to kiss Alessa’s lips, parting them lightly with her probing tongue. With Rhonda still fondling her, the two kissed. Alessa’s back arched and her body felt electrified, weightless with a desire she had never known before. At just the right moment, Rhonda slipped her fingers into her. With infinite gentleness, she slid them in and out until Alessa couldn’t take it anymore and her first orgasm exploded within her. Rhonda rolled onto her back and stared up at the ceiling.
    “That is an orgasm,” she announced.
    Alessa’s response was barely audible. “That was the most incredible feeling I’ve ever had in my whole life!”
    Rhonda giggled, proud to have given her friend her first orgasm, and they talked into the night until they had both fallen asleep.
    The next morning, after showering and eating breakfast, they headed down to the playground at Plymouth Elementary School. There was a dodgeball game on and Rhonda quickly joined the crowd, throwing and catching the ball for her team. Alessa wasn’t particularly athletic and decided to sit it out. Carl was there too. As she watched him play, she realized how much she liked him. He had been so nice to her all summer and Alessa wondered to herself if Carl could ever make her feel the way Rhonda had the night before.
    After the game was over Alessa, Rhonda, Carl and half a dozen other boys and girls walked over to the Plymouth Meeting Mall for lunch at Roy Rogers. Alessa was truly happy when she was with Rhonda and Carl; her friendships with them ensured that the rest of the group accepted her. When she was with the two of them, she felt like a normal teenager.
    After lunch, Rhonda and Alessa went into the Gap and laughed as they tried on jeans and tee shirts. Alessa enjoyed the experience, because she didn’t get new clothes too often. Even when she did get a new shirt or a pair of pants, it was never two items at the same time. And there was no way her mother would ever buy her clothes from the Gap; she only shopped at K-Mart in Norristown.
    Having got used to the idea of not receiving new clothes from Caterina, Alessa had ceased to long for them. Accepting the limitations of her reality was what kept her sane and enabled her to see the truth in other people. Alessa had no doubts at all that her mother was self-centered, her father little more than a shadow and her uncle a perverted asshole. This was a situation she would have to come to terms with on her own, for her siblings weren’t around often enough to help her through it.