question entered the air. I wanted to grab it back and ram it down her throat. The thought was violent but I couldn’t handle her being there. I didn’t want her seeing me with no legs.
‘How do you think?’ I answered, talking with a mouthful of mashed potato.
‘Don’t be like that.’ She sat in the chair and leant her elbows on her knees. Her long legs were bare. My gaze travelled up them. She had a little headband over the front of her hair. It plumped it up and made her look girly.
‘I’m sorry. I didn’t think,’ she muttered, pulling her dress as low over her legs as it would go.
‘Don’t worry,’ I said with my mouth full, spitting potato everywhere.
When she giggled, I lifted my fork and pretended to throw it at her. I stopped myself when she sat back and crossed her legs. They were toned, pale and very sexy.
‘I’ve lost my sexy legs.’
‘Do you think I’ve got sexy legs then?’ She tried to joke. Her pretend laughter fell flat. She was trying to lighten the mood. It wasn’t going to work.
‘Not as sexy as mine.’ I tried to bend my legs in reflex but nothing happened.
My fork clattered to the plate. Natalie’s face closed in on itself. I had to look away. I shoved the little table and the metal plate clattered to the floor. The nurse came in and started to clean it up without saying a word.
‘I want to be alone.’
I couldn’t look at Natalie. I hadn’t had a moment to myself since I had woken up. She stood and came to stand next to me. Our gaze met. She had a determined look to her expression. Why was she so desperate to be there?
‘I know it may seem—’
‘Save the pep talk, I—’
‘No! You listen to me.’ She grabbed my chin, getting in my face. ‘For six years you’ve been pushing me away. You want me, and then you don’t. There’s a reason for that and I want to find out why. I care for you much more than you realise. This is the worst thing you’ve ever had to go through, Aries, and I’m going to be there every step of the way…whether you like it, or not.’
I opened my mouth to respond. She pressed her lips to mine in a harsh kiss. When she pulled away, she spun and stormed out of the room. I had never seen her so passionate before.
‘The doctor will be here soon. If you need anything, just press the button.’ The nurse took out my mashed up leftovers.
Once the door had closed, I took in a breath right down to my stomach. I closed my eyes and saw Natalie’s fierce face. Why the hell had she come? And why did she want to be there for me? I was a cripple with no legs.
I sat stewing in my own pity, scowling when I was interrupted by the doctor coming in.
‘Aries, I’m here to talk to you about your options.’
I nodded as he stood by the bed.
‘Your wounds are healing nicely. We want to talk about getting you out of here. Life can go on as normal for you. You’re lucky. You have a lot of thigh left to work with.’
His words were professional but every one of them sent a bolt of anger up my arms. I was lucky? Did he know me?
‘I was a fireman,’ I said.
‘Yes, you were,’ he said, looking me directly in the eye. ‘Now, let’s talk about the options. You may have seen people in the Paralympics with prosthetic legs. They’re very flexible and make getting around a lot easier.’
‘You think I’ll be able to walk? With both my legs gone?’
The doctor smiled gently and patted my hand. ‘You’re a very fit young man. I have every faith that you will be walking in no time.’
I swallowed a couple of times. I looked away from the grey haired doctor and caught the sun shining out the window. I hadn’t noticed that the sky was bright blue. It was a lovely late spring day and the birds were singing loudly.
‘There is a fairly new clinical operation that has been quite successful. It’s called ITAP, which stands for Intraosseous Transcutaneous Amputation Prosthesis. I’ve checked your stumps. You’re a perfect candidate to have