exploded onto his head. He kicked the horse’s sides and she sped him away. His cries of agony drifted back to me. I swore. I wanted to kill him but I couldn’t. It was a curse.
The constant travelling to Earth, finding my true love and losing her by the hand of the man that I had failed to kill, was starting to grate on me. When we had last been in spirit, they had asked us if we wanted our memories wiped. Most of the others had agreed but I refused. What a fool I had been not to accept. Next time, I would succeed in uniting with my soulmate and nothing would stop me.
My body shuddered as I woke from my dream. It had been vivid. The pain of loss still lingered in my chest.
‘I’m pleased you’re awake.’ Natalie was sitting by my bed. Her ponytail swung forward as she reached for a cup of water. Her cheeks were red. She wore her jogging gear. She looked at me from under her mascaraed lashes as she sipped. She liked to do her full on makeup when she wasn’t working out but she would never go out without a bit of mascara on.
‘You again.’
I didn’t mean to be so blunt. I wished I could pull the words back as soon as they hit her. She flinched but didn’t move. I had woken with the memory of hatred so deep inside, that I had hit out without meaning to.
‘The doctor is coming to talk about the operation.’
I ran a hand over my hair and tried to think of a way to ask her to leave. She owed me nothing. It wasn’t like she was my girlfriend. In fact, I should be looking for my soulmate. That was my mission, wasn’t it? To be with my soulmate so we could defeat the Dysfunctionals. There was no way I was going to do that now. I had epically failed.
‘It’s exciting, isn’t it?’
I raised my eyebrows at her, which made her sit back in the chair.
‘Don’t be like that. You’ve woken up grumpy.’
‘I’m sorry.’
The doctor came in and sat with us. He had another man with him. They both looked excited. I didn’t feel the same. I wanted my old legs back.
‘Aries, we’ve managed to book you in for an operation in six months’ time.’
‘Six months?’
They expected me not to walk for six months? I would go insane.
‘We’re sorry. It’s the earliest we could get. We want to complete the procedure soon to lessen recovery time but there are only a small amount of clinical procedures we can do a year.’ The doctor opened a book and started to show me pictures of the amputees that had undergone ITAP.
‘Let me show you how the operation will work.’
Natalie was fixated on the other doctor. He was young, and if I had to admit it to myself, a handsome bugger. A hot flush ran over my skin. She wanted him more than she wanted me. Why was she even in the room?
‘We will fuse the metal to your bone. There is a company that have studied the way antlers work in animals. They have managed to come up with a solution that prevents infection. It helps the metal fuse to your bone and persuades the body that it’s part of the skeletal structure. This will leave the attachment coming out of the end of your stump. You will then be able to attach any type of prosthetic you like. There will be no soreness on your skin. Your skeleton should be able to feel where your prosthetic is.’
I heard his words but didn’t take them in. My mind was racing and my heart skipped. It sounded good.
‘You’re a fit, healthy man. There should be no reason why you can’t go back to your old life.’
‘You think I can be the same after this?’ I gestured to the bottom of the bed.
‘Aries…!’ Natalie gasped.
‘What…? It’s true. I can never go back to my old life. The fire service won’t let me work for them with fake legs. I won’t be able to help my brothers and sisters. I won’t be able to meet my soulmate.’
Her hand went to her chest as she scrambled out of her chair and grabbed her bag. She left the room, ignoring the hunky doctor as she went. It didn’t make me feel any better.
‘This is a