them arenât too dangerous, but why let them grow? Got a broomstick?â
Arguing seemed utterly pointless. She gave him her broom, then listened to the dull thuds from the porch as he took down the icicles. In the kitchen, she opened the bag heâd brought, and her nose immediately filled with the amazing smell of oven-fresh bagels. For the first time that morning, she became genuinely hungry. Melinda, the bakery owner, had also tossed in a few small containers of cream cheese. At that point it seemed churlish not to set out a couple of plates and make some fresh coffee.
Ryker came in, bringing the cold and the broom with him. âAll done. Where should I put this?â
She pointed to the pantry door at the back of the kitchen. âJust inside there. Thank you.â
âSafety, thatâs my thing,â he said as he put the broom away and shucked his jacket, revealing a gray flannel shirt that made his eyes and hair look even darker. âHow are you this morning?â
âIâm okay.â It was the best she could say. âI made coffee to go with the bagels. Do you drink it?â
âBy the gallon. But you donât have to feed me just becauseââ
She interrupted him, feeling a sense of desperation. âLetâs get past this, okay? Maybe you showed up out of nowhere without any warning. Maybe I donât know you from Adam, but youâre here because of Johnny. One way or another we should both respect his wishes. He wanted you to check on me. Iâm not going to tell you to get lost, at least not right away. You brought breakfast, which was nice, and I do have enough manners left to invite you to enjoy it with me. Okay?â
For a couple of seconds he didnât move, then a smile spread slowly. âCutting to the chase, huh?â
âAs much as I can. We can spend the next few hours fencing around, but honestly, I hate wasting time like that. Especially now. Sit down. Eat. Iâll join you. Thank you for the bagels.â
With a snort like a laugh, he took the chair she indicated at the kitchen table. The bagels were already sliced, so all they had to do was spread the cream cheese. Melinda, the bakery owner, had remembered that Marisa liked hers with chives. She hadnât had room to feel much outside her own pained universe for the past few months, but she was touched now by Melindaâs thoughtfulness. So many good people around here, and sheâd been avoiding most of them.
Maybe Rykerâs arrival had jarred her out of her self-preoccupation. Was grief selfish? She supposed it was.
At least he didnât tell her to sit while he got the coffee, or otherwise imply that she wasnât perfectly healthy. Lately, on the rare occasions she visited with her friends, they wanted her to let them take care of everything, as if she were an invalid. She understood they felt helpless to do much about anything else, but really, she was in good health and capable of getting a cup of coffee for someone.
But then the awkwardness returned. Ryker decided to pierce it. âI probably know more about you than you do about me,â he remarked. âJohnny talked about you from time to time, but I gather he said little about me.â
âHe mentioned R.T. a couple of times, but, no, he didnât say much. But then he didnât talk much about his friends in the Rangers or later. It was like when he came home, he turned all that off.â
âProbably wise,â Ryker said. He washed down a mouthful of bagel with some coffee. âCompartmentalizing, we call it. Keeping things separate. Why would he want to bring any of that home to you?â
âBut he talked about me,â she argued.
âOnce in a while. Sometimes everyone talked about home. Sometimes we needed to remember that there was a place or a person we wanted to get back to. The rest of the time we couldnât afford the luxury.â
That hit her hard, but she faced