ultimate, itâs not entirely natural.
Dallas jumps up from the picnic bench and slams my shoulder. His jacket strains at the armpits and his pants hover above his shoes. We ordered our uniforms in August and heâs already outgrown his. Life is not fair. âDid you hear about that poor Chinese kid who was beaten to death with a fencepost?â he asks. âDisgusting.â
âYeah, I saw that. What a bunch of freaks.â
âWhat would you rather be beaten with? Fencepost or barbed wire?â
âFencepost,â I say.
âMe too.â
Xavier stands alone across the grounds, waving. The sun shines off his hair like a halo, rippling as he makes his way over to us. Heâs three sentences into his speech before heâs within earshot.
Tyler Wilkins rushes in and trips Xavier, who crumples into the pavement. The crowd parts to ensure him a painful landing. Tyler laughs and shouts, âWalk much, unit?â
Tyler is a funhouse mirror image of Xavier. Heâs six foot and blond, but skeletal and homely. He reeks of deli meats and cigarettes. One day heâll slash Xavierâs face out of jealousy. We all know it, every one of us, but weâll be sure to act surprised.
Tylerâs goons leap over Xavierâs legs, giggling. Tyler puts a foot on his back to stop him from getting up.
Itâs like watching the planets align.
I strut over to Tyler and throw a right hook that staggers him. The crowd steps back to form an arena. Xavier commando-crawls to the edge of it.
Tyler swears at me and rubs his jaw. âYouâre dead, Connors.â
Somewhere in my brain I wonder if I should be nervous. Nah. I spent two hundred and twenty hours of summer preparing for this moment. Iâm zesty.
I let Tyler take a shot. I block it easily with my left forearm and wallop him in the gut with my right fist. I knock the wind out of him and follow with an elbow to the cheek. A hoot of excitement escapes my lips. The crowd starts buzzing.
I bounce on my toes and laugh. Tyler is bleeding and shocked. He knows Iâm going to win this fight. But heâs a scrapper, nerve-deadened and self-important. Backing down is not an option for a kid like him. He wipes his cheek on his sleeve and comes at me, spitting.
I pummel him in the faceâhook, jab, elbow strike. Pow, pow, pow. When he returns the blow, I grab his arm and twist it behind his back. I force him to his knees and kick him into the ground, much harder than I intend to. I hear groans from the watching girls and giggles from the gay boys.
Tyler drags himself up and tries to hit me, but heâs angry and embarrassed, and I can read his moves before he makes them. I dodge his blows, hopping away so he has to come at me; then I rush in and trip him. He slams into the pavement, just like Xavier did five minutes ago. The crowd gasps, laughs, narrates their recordings.
Iâm ready to beat Tyler Wilkins to a pulp of sodden flesh, but Mr. Graham steps between us with his arms outstretched. Tyler shoves him aside to get at me. I laughâshoving the principal wonât go over wellâand take him down hard with a wrist lock.
Two security guards pull us apart. Bystanders start yelling. âTyler started it!â âMax started it!â
The principal is shaking, heâs so mad. It turns his stomach to be in a crowd of teenagers. âYou are both suspended for the week,â he says through gritted teeth. âWait outside the front doors until your parents collect you.â He walks away, probably to wash his hands.
So Iâm stuck at the front of the school with two security guards and the kid I hate most in the world, waiting to tell my grieving mother about my latest wreckage. My heart thumps. My hands throb. Yet I feel absolutely premium.
They say violence is wrong and such and such, but I have never felt as happy in my life as I do now. Iâve shaken off a future of swallowing Tyler Wilkinsâs