why, Kai added, “He’s gay. Ulrich hasn’t told me, but he is.”
“How do you feel about that?” Jasper asked, watching his reaction.
“It’s fine. I don’t want you to think I have a problem with people being gay. I don’t.” Jasper’s eyes studying him quietly made him feel an odd need to fill the silence. “Really, I just… I’m not gay.”
Jasper nodded and remained quiet as if he were waiting for more.
“I mean, of course,” Kai lowered his voice a little. “I mean, I have thoughts about it. You know… being with a guy.” Blinking was the only reaction Jasper gave, so he continued spilling his secrets. “I mean all guys think about it, right? That’s normal. I don’t think about it all the time. Just, you know sometimes.” Jasper remained silent and just inclined his head towards Kai to suggest he was listening. “I guess I do dream about it. Not a lot, but sometimes. You know, being with a guy.”
“What do you dream?” Jasper’s voice seemed to ignite a fire inside of him.
Kai’s heart was beating a little harder as he thought about the details he was sharing with him. Something deep inside of Kai seemed to be encouraging him to open up his innermost thoughts to Jasper. It was odd to trust someone who he just met with this much. “Stuff.” His face felt sunburned.
“Stuff?” Jasper encouraged him to continue.
“Being with a guy. Having sex. What that might be like…” His voice trailed off as Jasper’s eyes seemed to capture his.
“Do you enjoy it?” Jasper’s eyes seemed to be touching him. Kai could almost feel them on him.
Lost in those sea-foam-colored eyes, Kai didn’t understand the question. “Huh?”
A slow smile crawled over Jasper’s mouth. “Do you enjoy interacting with the man in your dreams?”
Kai blinked to release himself from the spell he seemed to be under. Yes! “Oh, um… I don’t know.” Jasper didn’t look as if he was buying it. Kai shrugged. “I guess.” He glanced away from Jasper’s eyes. The man saw far too much, and Kai realized he had just said far more than he ever meant to speak out loud.
Jasper stood up. “I don’t have a TV. We can get one for your room if you’d like.” He walked into Kai’s new room as Kai followed him.
“No need. I have a computer.”
“Well, I do have a wide selection of books.” Jasper pointed at the shelves. Kai looked at the collection and pulled the one called Tales from Club Zombie off the shelf.
Jasper cautioned him. “Oh, you might not want to read that…”
The book seemed to open with a mind of its own. Kai looked down and SHIT! He slammed it shut and returned it to its spot on the shelf.
Grinning at Kai’s reaction, Jasper explained, “One of the guys here decided to try his hand at writing romance, so he has written the stories of the mated pairs.”
“These are all about men with men?” Kai choked on his words. This was a big damned book.
The handsome man smiled sympathetically. “Since zombies only mate to men, yes.” He picked up the dropped book. “It is really quite lovely.”
“Lovely? Lovely? How is that?” Asking as if he didn’t just drink a vial filled to the rim with some stranger’s ejaculate, Kai tried like fuck not to feel how his dick was trying to rip out of his pants after sharing his deepest secrets with a gorgeous man he barely knew.
“Some of the stories are rather romantic.” Jasper thumbed the well-read pages almost wistfully. “Most give a glimpse of the historic past. Zombies are international, so the stories are global.”
Kai nodded, not knowing what to say. He wondered briefly if there were any stories from Germany.
“You might enjoy Lafayette and Beau’s story. It is quite interesting without being too… too much. Sleep well and sweet dreams.”
“Night.”
Kai paced for a moment before making a decision. He pulled the book back off the shelf. Maybe it would be interesting to find out about the others living here. But first