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self-esteem each time.
    I care about Mark, so of course his words sting. I don’t have feelings for him the way he seems to have them for me, but that doesn’t take the bite out of what he said. His words hurt because they have so much truth to them. I am still getting to know who I am and I don’t know what others see.
    But I don’t know if that means I don’t love myself. Mark was sort of harsh. Then again, I did place myself in a relationship where I was being used. That has to say something about how I feel about myself.
    I feel the tears wet my cheeks and the dam bursts open. I can’t stop it. I wrap my arms around my middle and squeeze so tight, as if I am trying to hold my insides in. God, I love Nick so much. This hurts so bad.
    Did I fall this hard because I don’t love myself? Was I really so blinded that I made up seeing the love in his eyes just because I needed love so much. I try to force back my sobs, but I can’t.
    I stiffen when I feel strong arms wrap around me. “Being the youngest of seven brothers is not always easy. It has taught me to be very observant. Kimmie is not the only one going through something. You are too,” Ryan says as he places his chin on the top of my head.
    “He’s one lucky bastard. Say the word, me and my brothers will pay him a visit,” Ryan says when I don’t reply.
    I turn and place my face in his chest. His strong arms and warmth are comforting, but I realize quickly they are no substitution for the arms I want. The sizzle I felt earlier is just a fizzle now.
    “I just didn’t see this coming,” I gasp.
    “When we are in love we never do,” Ryan says wisely. “I have an idea. Let’s ditch these characters and go for a walk on the beach. It will help to clear your mind. Everyone is starting to bail anyway.”
    I look up at him not sure if I should go for a walk with him. He has always been nice to me and I feel safe around him. I just don’t want to give him the wrong idea. I have been staring at him almost as much as he has been staring at me.
    There is something in his warm golden eyes that makes the decision for me. I nod my head. “Okay.”
    “Cool, I’m going to bring a few things. Go clean this beautiful face and meet me by the door,” Ryan says and wipes the tears from my face.
    I sigh and go find the bathroom to freshen up. When I step out of the bathroom, Kimmie is propped against the wall glaring at me. I feel like a little kid that stole a cookie from the cookie jar.
    “You haven’t gotten to tell me what is going on with you, but I figure it has something to do with you and Nick breaking up,” Kimmie pauses and sighs. “With your track record, you are usually wrong about whatever you think Nick has done. Don’t do anything with Ryan that you will regret. He is a great guy. I don’t want to see Ry hurt and I don’t want to see you make a mistake.”
    Before I can reply she moves pass me and shuts herself in the bathroom. Her words weigh heavily on me. There is a big part of me that wants to believe that I’m wrong. That Nick wouldn’t have done such a thing to me. Then there is what I saw with my own eyes.
    I shake the images of a naked Jillian from my head and start for the front of the suite. The place is huge, but it looks like Ry was right. Everyone has started to go their separate ways. Johnathan is at the door with Ryan and Braxton is in the corner in a heated conversation with Heather.
    “Hey, I’m headed out. It was nice to meet you, Sephora,” Johnathan nods at me then gives his brother a look.
    “Nice to meet you too,” I say shyly.
    I don’t miss the annoyed glare Ryan shoots back at him. We all walk out the door at the same time without any further words. I sigh with relief when we reach the lobby of the hotel. Johnathan heads his own way and Ryan places his hand on the small of my back, steering me towards the beach off the back of the hotel.
    We stop to take our shoes off. Ryan holds up his finger signaling for me to