shop, and Dad had a school board meeting he had to attend, so Emily and I hit the mall. It was nice to have a little girl talk with somebody besides Dr. Lewis.
“ How is therapy going?” Emily asked as we pulled into the parking garage at the mall.
I shrugged. “It's ok. Dr. Lewis said I may be going down to one visit a week instead of two.”
“That's great, sweetie.” She looked genuinely happy. “I know you hate going, but I can see that your doctor is really helping you. I've never seen you so... happy .”
At that moment, I actually felt happy. “I am happy, sort of. College is good for me.”
“I loved college. I felt so independent.” She paused before adding, “You know I met Steve in college.”
I couldn't help but laugh.
“He was a sophomore and I was a freshman,” she began. “I was dating the quarterback of the football team at the time. Your father, he's not the most athletic person, but he loves football. We met at the football game, but I didn't pay him any mind. He had the biggest crush on me, but I was dating Mark Stevens. I thought we were in love.
“ You see, Mark and I dated all through high school. But he wasn't the most honest guy. I found out he was cheating on me with my best friend . Steve helped mend my broken heart, and I just happened to fall in love with him.”
“ Do you think I'll ever fall in love?” My voice was quiet when I asked the question.
“ Yes, I do.” She patted my arm gently.
“ Do you think that somebody will love me back? With... me... being the way I am?”
She sent me a sad smile. “Roxy, there is nothing wrong with you. And one day, when you're least expecting it, you're going to fall in love... And the lucky boy would be crazy not to love you back.”
I wished so bad that I could believe her, but how could I? She was obviously biased, being my mom and all. Could anybody else look past my crazy hair? Could they see beyond the writing on my arms? Would anybody ever love me for me? I was certain that the answer was no.
FIVE
I've never actually watched Aiden play before. Sure, I've been to every home game since freshman year, but I had never actually paid attention before. I just came to hang out with my parents. I didn't really like football, which was probably considered a sin in Alabama, but it just seemed so pointless to me... A bunch of guys running around, jumping on top of each other, and fighting over a ball? No thanks.
But, now that I'm watching... I mean really watching... I can definitely see the appeal. I never noticed how good Aiden looked in those little pants. They're really sexy.
Oh God, what am I saying? This is Aiden!
As the first quarter came to a close, I watched him take off his helmet. His blonde locks were wet with sweat, and he gently shook his head. I watched his shaggy hair fall perfectly into place, as if he hadn't ever had the helmet on. Who knew sweat could be so... hot?
“ So who is winning?” I asked Steve.
He looked at me with a look of confusion, but quickly smiled. “We are. 7 to 0.”
“Cool.”
As I watched the game, I didn't really pay attention. I mostly just watched Aiden, and his really tight pants. It was no wonder he was in such good shape, running up and down the field like he did.
“I don't think I've ever seen you so interested in the game before,” Steve commented just as the fourth quarter started.
I was slightly embarrassed that he was paying attention. I hoped that I wasn't drooling. “I'm just trying to have school spirit,” I said, hoping he would drop the subject.
“And it has nothing to do with the wide receiver? I've noticed you have been staring at him nearly the entire game.”
“ No. It has nothing to do with Aiden. He's my friend, that's it. I'm just here to hang out with you. That's all.” It was a lie, but he didn't need to know that.
“ Ok,” he said. “But, if you did have a thing for him, you'd have my blessing. Anybody smart enough to choose Auburn