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    I tried the next door. “Hey, girls! This is the best poet of the last 18 hundred years! Open the door! I’m gonna show you something! Sweet meat for your vaginal lips!”
    I tried the next door.
    I tried all the doors on that floor and then I walked down the stairway and worked all the doors on the second floor and then all the doors on the first. I had the whiskey with me and I got tired. It seemed like hours since I had left my room. I drank as I walked along. No luck.
    I had forgotten where my room was, which floor it was on. All I wanted, finally, was to get back to my room. I tried all the doors again, this time silently, very conscious of my shorts and stockings. No luck. “The greatest men are the most alone.”
    Back on the third floor I twisted a doorknob and the door opened. There was my portfolio of poems . . . the empty drinking glasses, ashtrays full of cigarette stubs . . . my pants, my shirt, my shoes, my coat. It was a wonderful sight. I closed the door, sat down on the bed and finished the bottle of whiskey that I had been carrying with me.
    I awakened. It was daylight. I was in a strange clean place with two beds, drapes, t.v., bath. It appeared to be a motel room. I got up and opened the door. There was snow and ice out there. I closed the door and looked around. There was no explanation. I had no idea where I was. I was terribly hung over and depressed. I reached for the telephone and placed a long distance call to Lydia in Los Angeles.
    “Baby, I don’t know where I am!”
    “I thought you went to Kansas City?”
    “I did. But now I don’t know where I am, you understand? I opened the door and looked and there’s nothing but frozen roads, ice, snow!”
    “Where were you staying?”
    “Last thing I remember I had a room in the women’s dorm.”
    “Well, you probably made an ass out of yourself and they moved you to a motel. Don’t worry. Somebody will show up to take care of you.”
    “Christ, don’t you have any sympathy for my situation?”
    “You made an ass out of yourself. You generally always make an ass out of yourself.”
    “What do you mean 'generally always’?”
    “You’re just a lousy drunk,” Lydia said. “Take a warm shower.”
    She hung up.
    I walked over to the bed and stretched out. It was a nice motel room but it lacked character. I’d be damned if I’d take a shower. I thought of turning on the t.v.
    I slept finally. . . .
    There was a knock on the door. Two bright young college boys stood there, ready to take me to the airport. I sat on the edge of the bed putting on my shoes. “We got time for a couple at the airport bar before take-off?” I asked.
    “Sure, Mr. Chinaski,” one of them said, “anything you want.” “O.K.” I said. “Then let’s get the fuck out of here.”
    8
    I got back, made love to Lydia several times, got in a fight with her, and left L. A. International late one morning to give a reading in Arkansas. I was lucky enough to have a seat by myself. The flight captain announced himself, if I heard correctly, as Captain Winehead. When the stewardess came by I ordered a drink.
    I was certain I knew one of the stewardesses. She lived in Long Beach, had read some of my books, had written me a letter enclosing her photo and phone number. I recognized her from the photo. I had never gotten around to meeting her but I called her a number of times and one drunken night we had screamed at each other over the phone.
    She stood up front trying not to notice me as I stared at her behind and her calves and her breasts.
    We had lunch, saw the Game of the Week, the after-lunch wine burned my throat, and I ordered two Bloody Marys.
    When we got to Arkansas I transferred to a small two engine job. When the propellers started up the wings began to vibrate and shake. They looked like they might fall off. We lifted off and the stewardess asked if anybody wanted a drink. By then we all needed one. She staggered and wobbled up and down the aisle