seem so reasonable and so right. He said that Craig would never ask me for it himself and if I loved Craig I would get the divorce. And that as soon as the year of training was up we could remarry.â
It was clear enough; still incredible, if one didnât know Drue, but clear. What was also pretty clear was dirty work at the crossroads.
âSo you got the divorce?â
âYes. It took six weeks.â
âAnd Craig got his training?â
âYes.â
âWhat happened then?â
âI donât know.â
âYou donât â¦â
She shook her head and looked away from me. âHe didnât come back.â
âBut didnât he understand why you did it? Didnât you see each other and write and â¦â
She shook her head again. âNo. That is, I did write a few times. But he didnât answer. The divorce went through very quietly andâand so quickly. And that was all.â
After a moment, I said, âAnd you never tried to see him?â
âNo.â Her mouth moved a little wryly. âYou see, I had my pride.â
And it had cost her enough. Well, I didnât say it. I pulled my uniform over my head and struggled through it and glanced at my watch. For all sheâd said so much it had been only a few minutes.
âBut now,â she said unexpectedly, âitâs different. Pride doesnât seem to matter so much. Iâm older; Iâm an adult now and a woman. I know what I want. I wasâsuch a child then.â
She was still a child. I didnât say it, but took my cap and went to the mirror so as to adjust it to hide the white lock in my rather abundant auburn hair. âAnd now youâve come back.â
She sat for a moment in silence. In the mirror I watched a look of determination come slowly into her face. Finally, she said, âYes, now Iâve come back. I had to.â
Watching her instead of what I was doing, I jabbed a pin into my thumb and muttered. So sheâd made up her mind to fight, and sheâd given up long ago her best and strongest weapon.
âI can understand your getting too much of Alexia,â I said briefly. âI can understand your leaving the house. I can even understand yourâwell, believing Pa Brent. And letting Craig go without any effort to keep him. But I cannot understand Craig.â
âWell, neither can I. Now,â she said, in a kind of abject voice which was not at all like her. Except for her flair of defiance with Alexia, she had been in a rather crushed state of mind ever since we started to Balifold, I realized then. This was not, however, her natural and customary reaction to life. She was a perfectly sensible and altogether charming young woman with considerable backboneâwhich up to then had certainly, however, been held in abeyance to a marked degree. But then love does do very odd things, and obviously she was still heartbreakingly in love with the man whom, nevertheless, she had divorced.
She patted the little dog. âSarah, it was all so clear then. Itâs only now, after Iâve had time to think and time to regret that I see it was all wrong. I believed it then, though. I never suspected.â
âSuspected what?â I said with a rather nervous glance at my watch again. âSuspected whom?â
âAnything. Anybody,â she said.
âAnd now you do?â
âNow I do. Now Iââshe stopped and said in a kind of whisper staring at the rugâânow Iâve got to know what happened.â
That at least was a step in the right direction and one clearly indicated by the foregoing little tale. I said briskly and, I remember, almost gaily, âGood for you. Itâs high time. Iâm proud of you.â
âItâs not easy,â she said, and gave me a quick and rather diffident glance. âI meanâwell, suppose Alexia is right. Suppose Craig doesnât want to see me. I