was brushing her hair. She did that a lot. And put on lipstick, then wiped it off.
âWhat do you want, Annabelle?â She looked at me in her mirror.
âWell.â I held my hands behind my back. âI wondered if I could borrow your sweater frog again,â I said, though I knew it was still up in my room. âThe one with the glittery stones on it.â One stone was missing, which was probably why Aunt Lily had lent it to me in the first place. It was old and a little bent, too. Not worth anything.
âMy sweater frog?â With a fingertip, she stirred the dish of notions she kept on her dresser. âBut you already have it, Annabelle. I havenât seen it since I lent it to you, have I?â
The little question she tacked onto the end gave me some hope.
âHavenât you?â I said, which wasnât a lie. How could a question be a lie?
âNo. I donât believe I have. And I donât remember you returning it.â Aunt Lily turned on her stool and looked at me from across the room. âBut if I donât have it, I canât very well lend it to you again, can I? Go see if itâs still up in your room somewhere.â She turned back to the mirror, a pair of tweezers in her hand.
As I turned to leave, she said, âAll your sweaters have buttons on them, Annabelle. No reason on earth to bother with a frog.â
I shrugged. All of her sweaters had buttons, too. âItâs just pretty,â I said.
âPretty. Nothing less important in the eyes of God, Annabelle, than pretty.â
It was a good supper we had that night: chops fried in bacon fat, potatoes baked soft, and slaw my mother made with cream and sweet onions.
After supper, when we were clearing everything away, my mother wrapped two rolls, a chop, and an apple in a scrap of oilcloth and tied it up by its corners. âTake this up the lane,â she said. âIf you donât see Toby, leave it in his box. But make sure you close the lid tight or the dogs will get into it.â
There were times when my mother told Toby he was âentirely too thinâ or that he needed âsome colorâ and sheâd send me with something extra for him to eat. She didnât dare send my brothers, who would use the excuse to horse around out in the dark until there was no time left for homework, barely enough for a bath.
âSquirrel is not enough for a grown man,â she said as she handed me the bundle.
âThereâs plenty of culls in the orchard,â I said, âand potatoes and beets not too far from his shack. I donât know why heâs so thin.â
My mother just looked at me. âDo you think he would take something without our say-so?â She shook her head. âWell, he would not.â
I considered her answer. âThen why donât we say so?â
âNever mind that,â she said, turning again to the sink. âJust get going and back again before itâs too dark to see where youâre putting your feet.â
âAnd why doesnât he just ask?â I said, though my motherâs back usually meant sheâd said all she had to say.
âSame as I said before,â she said without turning. âNow go on before all the lightâs gone.â
CHAPTER FIVE
Toby appeared in layers as I walked up the steep lane: first his hatted head, then more and more of him down to his boots as I reached the flat ground at the top of the lane. He was a scarecrow, but for the guns on his back and his arms hanging loose at his sides.
If he saw me coming, he made no sign of it. Toby never came to meet a person.
âHey, Toby,â I said. âMother sent me with a little supper.â I didnât know I would say it until I did: âWe had too much for just us.â
Tobyâs face in the shadow of his hat brim was as quiet and mild as an old dogâs.
I noticed the camera hanging from his neck. âDo you have any