that had always seemed to be in her hair.
Catherine had touched him in ways no one had before or since.
âI remember you,â he breathed. But most of all he remembered the promise he had made to her. The promise he had broken. And in that moment, he wished Peteâs bullet had gone straight through his useless heart.
Lord above, if there was one last wish he could have, it would be to set things right. Heâd sell whatever was left of his blackened soul for a way to go back and change what heâd done to her.
But it wasnât to be.
He knew that.
There was nothing left for him to do except see the money back to the orphans Pete had stolen it from.
After that, he didnât know where heâd go. Heâd have to find another place where the law and Pete couldnât find him. If such a place existed.
Briefly, he considered trying to find her. After all, she had been his safe harbor. His greatest strength.
But then, she had also been his greatest weakness.
No, it wouldnât do to seek her out. Too much depended on him staying away from her. Because one thing his brother, Pete, had taught him years agoâthere was no such thing as a second chance.
1
âAll I want for Christmas is a man as handsome as the Devil himself. One with a charming smile, at least some semblance of intelligence, and a great, big, bulgingââ
âRebecca Baker!â Catherine OâCallahan gasped, shocked at her friendâs words.
âBank account,â Rebecca said as she dropped her hands down from the graphic illustration she had been providing. She picked up the frying pan near Catherine, then placed it on top of the black iron stove. âI was only going to say bank account. â
Trying not to smile lest she encourage her friendâs libidinous conversation, Catherine looked askance at Rebecca as she continued washing dishes.
Rebeccaâs olive cheeks colored ever so slightly as she walked back to the sink. âWell, maybe I wasnât. But as a married woman yourself, you know what I mean. How long am I supposed to go around mourning Clancy anyway? Good grief, itâs been almost four years since he died. And I barely knew him before we married.â
As was her habit, Rebecca gestured dramatically with her hands to illustrate her next words. âMy father practically dragged me to the altar to marry a man almost twice my age. I tell you, snuggling up to a man whose hands and feet are colder than icicles in January isnât my idea of wedded bliss.â
Catherine could well agree with that point.
Rebecca sighed dreamily as she idly put the plates on the shelf above her head. âWhat Iâd like to have is a gorgeous, warm man I could be cow-tied to forever. A man who could enter the room and make me all hot, and cold, and all jittery.â She looked at Catherine and smiled. âKnow what I mean?â
Blushing, Catherine grew quiet as she rinsed a large black pot. She knew exactly what Rebecca meant. Sheâd lain awake many a night as memories washed over her of a pewter-eyed demon who had promised her everything, including the moon above.
A man who had made her body so hot there had been times when she was certain sheâd perish in flames.
But unlike her friend, she wasnât a widow. For all she knew, her husband could come waltzing up to the front door at any time and knock on it.
As if that would ever happen, Catherine chided herself.
When would she give up her useless, unwavering hope of seeing him again? Why couldnât she just put him out her mind?
What was it about him that made her yearn for him after all this time?
Of course, she knew the answer to that questionâeverything about him. Heâd been so wonderful and kind, considerate and giving. Up until the day he left her without so much as a by-your-leave.
She must be insane to still yearn for him.
And after five years, he might be dead. Heaven knew, a lot had happened
Janwillem van de Wetering