said, they scare me. So Iâve avoided them. But if I start the process by drawing one, or several, that could be very calming.â Or terrifying. She wouldnât know which until she tried it. âBut Iâm staying outside the fence.â
âTheyâre all in the barn now, anyway. Itâs feeding time.â
âThen Iâm staying outside the stall.â
âThatâs fine. I was picturing you concentrating on their heads, anyway. And their eyes. Look into their eyes long enough and Iâll bet youâll feel better about climbing on board one of them.â
âYouâll stick around while I do this?â
âWhy not? All I had on my schedule was ripping out some old carpet. That can wait.â
âThen letâs go.â The stables were only a short way from her house, but sheâd never spent any time there, just like sheâd never gone out to the little barn behind her house after that awful night. Georgie used to keep her horse, Prince, there, but the property she and Vince had rented included a barn, so Prince had moved out, too.
âHow are the renovations coming along?â she asked as they approached the stable. She wanted to know, but talking about it would serve the dual purpose of distracting her. She did
not
like barns.
âSlow, but thatâs because Iâm a perfectionist. At this rate Iâll be finished in about ten years.â
âYou should get Georgie to help you. Sheâs extremely handy with tools.â
âSheâs offered, but Iâm having fun doing it by myself. Iâve never owned a house before, so this is a brand-new experience for me.â He pushed open the main gate to Ed and Vivianâs property. It included the stable, a couple of corrals, and their house, which doubled as an office.
Ed and Vivian sat on the front porch and they both called out a greeting.
Mac waved at them. âOkay if I give Anastasia a tour of the stable?â
âSure thing.â Ed smiled at her. âDonât think Iâve ever seen you down here, young lady.â
âNope!â She smiled back, although it felt more like a grimace. âFirst time.â
âBut not her last!â Mac sounded quite happy about that.
She wasnât. She looked at him so she wouldnât have to look at where they were going. âIâm glad you bought a house here. It shows that you have confidence in Bickfordâs future.â
âI do, and Iâve always liked the town.â
They were mere steps from the barnâs double doors, which stood open and ready to swallow her up. She kept the conversation going. âVince would love to buy Momâs place because he knows how much Georgie wants it, but Mom wonât sell while the marketâs going up.â
âAnd if she sold it, where would you live?â
She shrugged. âIâd figure something out. I wish Georgie could get that house. Her ancestors built it and she maintains it even though sheâs not living there anymore. She should have it. Iâve tried talking to Mom but sheâs stubborn.â
âSo I hear. Hey, are you okay?â He peered at her. âYou look pale.â
âIâm scared of horses, but Iâm also scared of barns.â
âIâm sorry. I didnât know that. I thought a barn would make it easier because the horses are all confined in their stalls. Do you want to forget going in?â
She stood there breathing hard and feeling like an idiot. Learning to ride had been her idea, not Macâs, but he had agreed to help her and his suggestion that she draw the horses was a good one.
Her ultimate goal was to ride a horse out to the canyon where the Ghost kept his band, and draw him from life. If she couldnât even enter this barn, then none of that would take place. People entered barns all the time. No big deal.
She swallowed. âI want to go in. This is