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league? If anything she was the one who wasn’t even close to his league.
    He just shook his head. “And then I became your guy friend,
the one you used as a sounding board for male behavior. It was too late. I was
firmly in the friend slot.”
    “I didn’t know, Jonas. I had no idea. I’m so sorry.”
    “Shhhh…” He stroked one hand through her hair. He’d slipped
his glasses on again and it was almost as if he used them as a shield. “No need
to be sorry.”
    “All the times I told you things.” She closed her eyes,
remembering all the details of her sex life she’d shared with him.
    “I used to go to bed, thinking of the stuff you told me,” he
whispered. “I’d jack off, imagining it was me doing them with you.”
    She laughed and smacked him on the chest. “Pervert.”
    “But a faithful one,” he chuckled. “It was always you that I
jacked off to.”
    She laughed and lightly pinched one of his nipples making
him yelp. How it must have hurt him to listen to her stories, to hear of her
exploits with other men. How could she have done that to him?
    “I’m so sorry,” she said again.
    “Don’t,” he said, shaking his head at her.
    She sighed. “I was so jealous when I saw you with that
redhead,” she admitted. “I didn’t know why it bothered me so much, just that it
did.”
    “I decided it was time to move on.”
    “I was so pissed when you told me to talk to someone else,”
she confessed. “I was confused and hurt.”
    “I had to move on, Jacey. I couldn’t keep on the way we
were.”
    She nodded her head in understanding. “I didn’t realize how
much you meant to me until then, Jonas. Which should show you how shallow and
self-centered I am. I wouldn’t blame you if you kicked me out and never spoke
to me again.”
    He reached down and wiped a tear off her cheek, making her
aware that what she’d been trying to hold at bay was dripping from her eyes.
    “Don’t cry,” he whispered softly, shifting down in the bed
so that they were face-to-face. “I’d never be able to not speak to you again.
Not ever.”
    “I’m so sorry, Jonas,” she said, fighting to hold back the
sobs. “I never meant to hurt you. I’ve been so stupid, so blind. And I’ve
managed to hurt the one person who means the most to me.”
    “It’s okay,” he said, feathering her face with kisses.
    “No, it’s not. I’m a bad person and I don’t deserve a guy
like you.”
    “You’re not a bad person, Jacey. I never took the chance to
tell you. I figured a part of you was better than none of you. And that was
what I would have been left with if I’d told you how much I wanted you and
you’d walked away.”
    “I could never walk away from you,” she vowed then laughed.
“Apparently not even when you tell me to.”
    “Are you sure about that?”
    “Yes.”
    “So this isn’t a one-night stand?” he asked her softly. And
she deserved the question. Lord knew she’d had enough of them, in fact, had a
habit of them.
    “I’m hoping you don’t want it to be.” She didn’t know
exactly what she did want but she knew she didn’t want only a night.
    “I don’t. I love you, Jacey. I have for a long time. I love
everything about you, even when you drive me crazy.” He laughed. “Hell,
especially when you drive me crazy.”
    “You love me?”
    “Yeah, Princess, I love you.”
    She was crying again. But Jonas just smiled and pulled her
close, hugging her tightly. She knew he wasn’t expecting her to say the words
back and the truth was that she couldn’t. She wasn’t sure what love was, not
love between a man and woman anyways. She loved her friends, her family, but
that was all she knew.
    Her parents had divorced when she was too little to
remember. But from the look on Jack’s face whenever her dad’s name was
mentioned she had little doubt that her dad had been a bad person. Her brother
never referred to him by name. In fact, unless her mom was present he called
him “the abusive