am just very selfish. I donât want things to change. And they are changing. But I donât resent Jennifer, either. I donât want you to think that. I love her dearly, and I am very happy for the both of you that you are together at last.â She laughed suddenly and leaned forward to kiss him on his bare chest. âI donât know what I mean. I am talking a lot of nonsense. I am very happy, Charlie. Happy to be home again. Happy to see you happy.â
He raised himself on one elbow and leaned over her, smiling warmly down into her shadowed eyes. âI love you, lass,â he said. âThat is not ever going to change. Not ever, do you hear me? And these arms are always here for you. And Iâm always here for you.â
âCharlie.â She reached up and touched his cheek with her fingertips. âKiss me. Make love to me.â She opened her arms to him.
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âW ELL , I LIKE THEM ,â Madeline told her brother that same evening. âMrs. Simpson is very lovely, is she not? I was surprised. And I suppose you are quite in love with Miss Simpson already.â
He grinned. âWhy do you suppose that?â he asked.
âBecause she is just your type,â she said. âShe is small and has those large eyes and blushes easily. Though I believe she has more sense and more spirit than your usual flirts, Dom. I approve.â
âAh,â he said. âThat is something, at least. You actually approve of something in my life.â
âYou are in love with her, then?â she asked.
âLet me put it this way,â he said. âI am thinking about it. What surprised you about Mrs. Simpson?â
âI expected a pale, wilting creature,â she said, âor else a manly, insensitive Amazon. She seems sensible. Edmund and Alexandra were much impressed. What on earth is she doing married to Captain Simpson?â
He grinned again. âLoving him and caring for him, apparently,â he said. âHe is one of the happiest men of my acquaintance.â
âWell,â she said, âI have to admire women like Mrs. Simpson. Iâm afraid I am swayed a great deal by what a man looks like. Do you think that is one reason why I am an old maid, Dom?â
âYou?â he said. âAn old maid? Hardly, Mad. You have half the officers in Brussels sighing over you. Donât you fancy any of them?â
She shrugged. âI fancy a large number of them,â she said. âThat is the whole trouble. It used to be different, Dom, didnât it? For both of us. We always used to be deeply and painfully in love with someone. That does not seem to happen any longer.â
âBecause we are older and a little wiser,â he said. âDo you ever think of Purnell? Was he the last one you were in love with like that?â
âI scarce remember him,â she said. And then, after twisting and turning her teacup on its saucer, âSometimes I wish I did not have a twin. There is no lying to you, is there, Dom? Of course I think of him. And I always feel a little sick every time Alexandra has a letter from him. He has been gone three years and is making a life for himself in Canada, by the sound of it. Well, good luck to him. I just wish I had never met him. I wish he were not Alexandraâs brother. I wish he had not spoiled my life.â
âThose are strong words,â he said. âDid he really do that?â
âI have never been able to fall in love since,â she said. âAlthough I constantly try, Dom.â
âYou donât still love Purnell, do you?â he asked curiously.
âI donât believe I ever did,â she said. âI disliked him intensely. I was a little afraid of him. And I was obsessed by him. I really never knew him at all. That is not love. There was nothing about him that was lovable. Only the mystery of what it was that made him so morose, so untouchable. No, I donât love
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