the moon casting a weird glow on its surface. The pool is separated from the white crash of the Pacific by a low rock wall. Beyond the pool are weird stone structures and, above them, cliffs higher and steeper than the ones on which we stand. Behind us, before she heads into the place called Cliff House, Birdie explains that this used to be the site of a popular old-fashioned bathhouse that burned down long agoâweâre looking at the ruins of its largest pool. Itâs strange and beautiful. I see small figures pacing the rock wall. One turns in our direction and stops, waving up at us. Winnie waves back, then turns to me, a shy smile playing across her features. She looks so much like my mother at this moment, I could cry.
âHey, little sisâwant to meet my boyfriend?â
Chapter Three
Winnie leads us along the cliffâs perimeter and down a sloping, sandy path overgrown with wildflowers. The man who waved makes his way to us, pausing periodically to consult in murmurs with one of the shadowy figures.
âOh, baby,â Harp mutters when we can see his face. Heâs extremely good-lookingâtall, graceful, golden-skinned, with dark eyes and black hair cropped close to his head, a disarming smattering of freckles across his nose.
âVivian, Harp,â Winnie says, once heâs reached us. âThis is Diego, Amandaâs second-in-command. Diego, this is Vivian AppleâMaraâs daughterâand Harp.â
Diego steps forward and stares at me for an uncomfortable moment. âYeah, I see it. You guys have the same eyes, pretty much. You probably think theyâre brown, right?â
âUh . . . yes?â
âSo does your sister. Theyâre actually a gorgeous green. Hints of brown, sure, but definitely green. I donât know why either of you insists on calling them brownâfalse modesty? Genuine stupidity? And
youâre
trying to hide them beneath your hair.â Diego glances at the bangs falling into my eyes, and, flustered, I push them back.
âOh, for Godâs sake, D.,â mutters Winnie, but I see her mouth twitch.
âIâm sorry youâre colorblind, Win,â he says, moving to sling an arm across her shoulders. âIâm sorry youâll never be able to fly a plane, which I know is your lifelong dream.â
Winnie laughs. Theyâre so easy and happy together; theyâre good-looking and dangerous and impressively grown-up. Just being near them makes me feel so alone. I want Peter. I want to know where he is; I want him here. I want to stop the awful loop of possibilities that has played in my brain all day: Peter running scared through the wilds of Point Reyes; Peter beaten and bloody, the Three Angels closing in; Peter dead.
I have to distract myself. I nod at Diego and ask Winnie, âDoes Mom know about him?â
She looks amused. âNo, Mara doesnât know Iâm in a relationship with a man planning a violent coup against the Church of America. Somehow, it hasnât come up. Sorry, love.â Winnie turns to Diego, affecting a pitying look. âThe fact is, Iâm ashamed of you.â
Diego smiles. âIâve never been good with parents.â
âIn fact,â Winnie continues, glancing back at me, âMara knows nothing about my involvement with this. As far as sheâs concerned, Iâm only a saintly social worker, finding suitable homes for the poor left-behind babies. Which, in a way, I am! But what she doesnât realize is that Iâm finding the kids secular homes, where theyâll be safe from the Church. I doubt Mara would be
thrilled
if she knew, so next time you see her, please donât mention it.â
I feel something constrict inside me. âYeah, I donât think that will be an issue.â
âNo?â
I donât want to talk about it, but Harp explains. âWhen we saw ourselves on the feed, we went to your apartment. But
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