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guess.”
    “But,” she sighed again. “I don’t think I’m ready to jump back into another relationship. My first one was a disaster. We yelled and fought more than anything. He was just as unhappy with me as I was with him. And I know I don’t make a good wife.”
    Walter told him that she had opened up to Sissy, stating that while there was no physical abuse in the marriage, there was plenty of verbal and emotional. Nathaniel knew from watching many other relationships over the years that emotional and verbal abuse was just as bad as physical.
    He reached over and tilted her chin up with a finger. “You’re letting one man’s opinion rule you. From what I’ve seen, you are a caring individual. I heard nothing but praises coming from my brother about you earlier, and I know for a fact his wife thinks very highly of you. That tells me your deceased husband didn’t know what he was talking about.”
    She shook her head sadly. “No, he knew what he was talking about. My cooking skills aren’t the best. And I can’t have kids. We tried the entire time we were married and never once did I get pregnant. Hell, I can’t even…well, never mind.”
    “You can’t what, baby?” he pressed, already knowing what she wasn’t saying.
    She shook her head, but kept it resting on his chest. “Never mind. I’m just not meant to be a wife, or mate, or whatever you want to call it.”
    She looked up at him with tears in her eyes. “Nathaniel, I know you think I’m your mate. But trust me, I’d only disappoint you.”
    He could have flipped her over and paddled her ass good for that last comment, but knowing that her low self-esteem came from ten years of being told she wasn’t good enough, he couldn’t hope to break down all of her walls in one day.
    “Babe, I hate to break this to you, but fate doesn’t get it wrong. Okay, so maybe you are not the best cook. I’m a vampire, do you think I care one way or another? And as far as getting pregnant, again, I’m a vampire. While it isn’t impossible to have kids when the female is a human, it is difficult.
    “Now, if you were going to tell me you’ve never had a climax, I’ve got news for you, babe. That wasn’t your fault. It was his. Obviously, he didn’t know how to make love to a woman. Slowly. Tenderly. Letting her simmer and then watching her climb that peak, toppling over the edge at just the right moment.” He reached over and stroked her cheek. “I bet you are gorgeous in the throes of an orgasm.”
    She took a shaky breath before stating a bit sadly, “I wouldn’t know.”
    Nathaniel could smell her cream growing stronger and stronger the longer they talked. He started with her forehead, trailing kisses down her face, across her jaw, and then finally finding her mouth. He was relieved to find her willing and open to his advances. He started the kiss off slow and easy, not wanting to spook her. He had a plan. He sipped at her lips and then watched as he pulled back just a bit. She leaned into him, her lips chasing his. This time when their lips met, he demanded entry, and she was quick to comply. At the same time as he was plundering her mouth and learning every inch of every crevice there was to find, he also took advantage of her being distracted and ran his hands up and down both of her sides. When he reached the sides of her breasts, she thrust forward just a bit and he took that as an invitation to explore the beautiful globes.
    Finally, knowing she needed air, he broke off the kiss. Her head went back to his chest again as she attempted to replenish her lungs. He still had both hands under her breasts, cradling them, running his thumbs lightly over the nipples.
    “Baby, would you let me pleasure you? It would be my honor to show you there is nothing wrong with you. I would love to watch you experience your first climax.” When she jerked her head up, he saw the fear in her eyes.
    “Shh, sweetheart. All I want to do is pleasure you. No strings