childhood? No. Actually, at first I thought I might become a stockbroker or an investment banker.â
Lily couldnât help but smile. She couldnât imagine Mitch as either of those. She didnât know why. She just couldnât. âSo why arenât you working on Wall Street?â
âI was good at sportsâ¦basketball. I won a scholarship to college. But during my sophomore year my mother got sick and didnât tell me. She didnât have insurance so she didnât go to the doctor. She developed pneumonia and died.â
âOh, Mitch. Iâm sorry. That had to be awful for you.â
Again he looked uncomfortable revealing this part of his past. âSheâd been my motivator. After she died, I took a nosedive. Iâd been a good student, but my grades tanked. Then one day, after a few months of drinkinginto the night and sleeping too late to get up for class, I looked out the dorm window and knew that campus wasnât real life. Guys hooking up with girls, frat parties, learning to play teachers for better grades. I thought about my momâs life, how hard it had been and how it ended, and I decided to make a difference. I wanted to help patients who didnât have much of a chance. I wanted to give life when it was hardly there any longer. So I juggled two jobs, got my B.S., and went on to med school. I decided on trauma surgery. In my last year of residency, September 11th happened.â
Lily thought of Raina and her first husband, a fire-fighter, who had lost his life that day. Her knowledge of Mitchâs character and her intuition where he was concerned urged her to ask, âAnd thatâs when you signed up for the Army National Guard?â
âYes.â
âWhen did you go to Iraq?â
âTwo years later.â
They were both quiet for a few moments.
Mitch flexed his hand and moved his fingers as she often saw him do, and she knew he was remembering something he never talked aboutâ¦something that caused those deep fatigue lines around his eyes some mornings.
To break the heavy silence, she asked, âAre you happy being part of our fertility practice?â She and two other doctors had been in unanimous agreement, voting him into their partnership.
âYou mean would I rather be performing surgery? Sure. But I like what I do. You and me, Jon and Hillaryâ¦we give the seeds of life a chance, as well as at-risk pregnancies. Thatâs rewarding. What I miss is notbeing part of the Guard, no longer having that unique camaraderie and sense of spirit. Before deployment, it was tough trying to be a doctor as well as a guardsman. But it was what I wanted to be doing.â
Abruptly he stood, his body language telling her that this conversation was over. He already knew Lily was the type who wanted to know more, who would ask questions until she got her answers. He was cutting that off before it could go any further. To her surprise, she already missed his presence at the end of the sofa.
âI checked your refrigerator and you have a couple of choices,â he said with a forced smile. âScrambled eggs, scrambled eggs with asparagus and bacon on the side, or⦠I think I saw sausage in there that I could turn into sausage and pasta of some kind, maybe with canned tomatoes.â
âAre you kidding me?â Her eyes were open wide and she was staring at him as if she really didnât know him.
âI told you my mom taught me the basics. But in college I had an apartment with two other guys. I couldnât stomach pizza every night, so I cooked. I borrowed a cookbook or two from the library and they kept me going for the year.â
âYouâre just full of surprises,â Lily said, laying her head back against the arm of the sofa, suddenly tired and feeling weak.
âIs the adrenaline finally giving out?â he asked her.
âIf you mean do I feel like a wet noodle, yes. Are you happy now?â
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