Youâre up late.â
âI like looking at the sky,â I said.
âMe, too.â Then she reconsidered. âActually, there is something you could do that would be very helpful.â
âSure, what?â
She said that Raymond had been working like a fiend on some songs and he seemed happy about them and heâd been writing the lyrics in a little notebook, but he didnât want to play them for her because they were inappropriate. âI guess theyâre hip-hop or something,â she said. âHe likes the fact that youâre a poet, and I think heâd like you to hear them. Or Iâd like you to hear them.â
I said sure, Iâd love to hear his songs. âIâm no expert on Biggie Smalls, but I just got a guitar and it would be fun to hear what heâs been up to.â Then suddenly I had a thought. âWhy donât you and Raymond come over sometime and we can have dinner and then he can play me his songs and you can put your fingers in your ears. I could get takeout sushi.â
âThatâs a nice idea,â she said. âRaymond loves California roll.â
âGreat,â I said. So Nan and Raymond are coming to dinner. Fortunately the downstairs bathroomâs still clean from the video coupleâs visit. Iâve got to get some songs together to play for them. Casually available for singing, if it comes to that. Iâve got to be able to hold my head up.
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I âM OUT IN MY K IA R IO with the door open at eleven in the morning, the day after the barking deer episode. Get back on the horse. Today there is only one agitated bird. A nice thing happened to me last nightâNan asked me for help. I feel honored. I wish there was something I could do to help her, or her mother. All politics is local. I wish I could write Nan a song. I gave it a try, using some of the chords Iâve learned, an A minor chord and a D minor chord and a seventh chord. The chorus was: âI wish there was something I could do for you.â
My fingertips are profoundly numb from too much guitar. They feel like little white islands.
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H EY HEY HEY. Let me try to get it together. Deep breath now. Hide the things that youâre most embarrassed by. Nobodyâs going to care, but hide them anyway. I have so much in my head thatâs screaming to get out. Politely requesting passage. Sometimes knowing things and knowing that youâll never unknow them, unless you say them, is really unbearable.
Hereâs my Traveling Sprinkler file. Itâs fat with patent records that Iâve printed out from the patent office. Some people call them walking sprinklers. I talked to a man in North Platte, Nebraska, named Ed Saulsbury, who restored traveling sprinklers. Back before I got distracted by the wars in Afghanistan and Iraq, I was going to write a poem about Ed, and I bought two very interesting vintage sprinklers on eBay. I wrote part of the poem and then I put it away, and then a few months ago, I thought Iâd call Ed and see how he was doing, and it turned out that heâd died in 2007. Heâd been a utility pole climber, servicing power lines.
In
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, Mary Oliver has a prose poem about a black jet flying over a hummingbird. âAll narrative is metaphor,â she says. Or is it âAll metaphor is narrativeâ?
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I GOT OUT OF THE SHOWER this morning and didnât want to go to Planet Fitness, so I put a pillow under my bottom and hooked my feet under the bed and did some sit-ups while reading a poem by Léonie Adams. Thereâs a scene in one of John Wayneâs last movies, where heâs puffy-faced and sick from cancer, which he got either from playing Genghis Khan in a radioactive valley downwind of the Yucca Flat nuclear test site, or from smoking four packs of
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