don’t. I’m practically shaking with how upset I am. She
called Aiden when she needed help. She should’ve called me.
“Please give me my
sandwich. You can use any of the guest rooms down here. And then you
need to leave in the morning.”
That snaps me out of
it. “Dammit, Jade. I don’t think you slept with Aiden, or even
offered to. It’s just…I…you should’ve asked me for help.”
“You can set up a
security system like Ainsley, Scott, and Aiden can?”
“No, but I would’ve
called him for you.”
“I didn’t need a
middleman. I know how to dial a phone.”
“You mean that you
didn’t need me.”
“I didn’t know I
could have you. You’ve pushed me away for over two years, treating
me like I was just some silly girl with a crush. Why would I ask you
for help?”
She’s right. I know
she’s right. Well not about everything. “I never thought you were
a silly girl.”
“And this is the
other thing. You show up here acting like some switch has been
flipped. Saying you want me now. What the hell am I supposed to
think?”
“I’ve always wanted
you, J. You’re supposed to think that I’ve finally decided that
I’m man enough to have a woman like you.”
“Like me? I don’t
know if that’s a compliment or an insult?”
“I’d never insult
you.”
“Then tell me what
you mean.”
This is the easy part.
Well, not really. If telling her how I see her was easy for me, I
would’ve done it years ago. Now that I’ve decided that I’m
going for it with her, I want to tell her. I need her to know how
gone I am for her.
“You’re wicked
smart, sexy as sin, so gorgeous it hurts to look at you for long, and
the best friend anyone could ever hope to have. You bring me to my
knees every time I’m near you.”
“You’re not on your
knees now.”
“Is that what you
want, Angel? You want me on my knees?”
I see her chest rise
and fall, even in that loose shirt. Oh yeah, she wants me there.
Right where I want to be. I just need her to say it.
“We should eat,”
she says suddenly.
“Isn’t that what we
were talking about? Eating?”
“Food, Soldier.
Food.”
She turns and starts
walking towards what I’m guessing is the kitchen. I catch up to
her, and pull her against me so I can whisper in her ear. “I know
I’m coming on strong, but I can wait. It’s your call. When,
where, how. For our first time, at least. After that, well, I’m as
alpha as they come, so I do need to be in charge. I’ll give you what you need, though. You can
count on that.”
“Please stop with the
mixed signals. That’s not what I need right now.”
I’m shocked enough to
drop my arms from her. She takes the opportunity to move away from me
and grab two beers from the fridge. I set the sandwiches and sides
down on the kitchen island as she stands on the other side.
“You’re going to
need to explain those last comments to me. I thought I’d made
myself very clear today.”
“Seriously? You show
up saying you want me, but won’t kiss me because it’s ‘not the
right time.’ Then you say things to get me all hot and bothered
while not getting the least bit excited yourself. And finally, you
accuse me of sleeping with your best friend because I called him, and
not you, for help.”
Is she kidding? No,
looking at her I can tell she’s dead serious—and she took
everything I said today the wrong way. That’s my fault. I forgot to
put away my player persona with her. I need her to see me, the real me that I don’s share with other women.
“Come over here and
sit with me. Please.”
She looks nervous, but
she nods and walks over. “Okay.”
I reach out to cup her
face with one hand, while I hold one of hers with my other. “I kept
my armor up with you today, and for that, I’m truly sorry.”
“You don’t need to
protect yourself from me.”
“You’re the most
dangerous person on this planet to me, Jade. The only woman who could
ever break my heart, because you own it
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