hundred and six, makes me feel like a corpse, but some of the other ladies are going, so I thought why not?â
âHow is Okie?â
âOld! Howâs Puppy?â Iâd made the mistake of telling Lana Hannaâs nickname for Damon and it had stuck.
âYoung. Working hard on his play, you know? Heâs really trying to get it seen by the right people but thereâs just so much stuff out there itâs impossible to get anyone to sit up and take notice.â
âI do wish youâd find someone like that . . . what was his name? The boy you brought home to me to meet that time when you had just left university.â
âOh god, Mum.â
âWhat was his name?â She tapped her temple as though the motion would prompt her memory into working.
âKurt.â Weâd been over this many times before.
âYes! Thatâs it. Just like that movie star â Russell. He was a nice hulking lad, wasnât he? You loved him, he was good to you, always went to your plays and drove you this place and that.â
âMum, Kurt broke my heart, remember? He kept telling me weâd be together forever and then when I finally fell for all that drivel he confessed that he was seeing two other guys at the same time. Iâve long since chalked him up to yet another wayward romance â you need to let him go.â
âSo hunky though, wasnât he?â
I ignored her. She mentioned the death of some Hollywood actor in the news, one weâd both admired in the Seven Hills days. We placed currency-free bets on who would be next to go, lifelong believers in the theory of threes, though we never wrote down who weâd nominated, so when some poor star slid off, we both took credit for tipping he or she would be next to go. Lana offered me a beer and sat there drinking while I pretended not to want one. My head was still throbbing and the greasy spoon meal was only just beginning to have a sobering effect. I never alluded to what I cleaned up around her place but when I asked her what sheâd done last night, she was honest enough to say she did not remember getting home but was fairly certain Okie had walked her to her door. I was pleased not to be confronted by whatever state he would have been in had he stayed.
âI got a postcard from Lexi this week,â Mum said with a hint of surprise. âSheâs been in Cairo.â
âCairo?â
âClearly she tells her grandmother more than she tells her father. Said it was chaotic and dangerous and mystical and she was loving every second of it. You really need to reach out to her a bit more, I think. No wonder she doesnât tell you what sheâs up to when youâre too busy with your nose up your own arse like it doesnât stink.â
âCharming. Well, she certainly does get around. Iâm glad sheâs making the most of her time over there.â
I made the mistake of looking at my watch and she misinterpreted the gesture.
âWell . . . Okie will be waiting,â she said. âYou best be off so I can go too.â
I kissed her goodbye and listed the things Iâd put in her fridge, hoping she would make a note of what needed to be consumed before it went off. She nodded impatiently and ushered me out, pausing to spray a mist of perfume over the top of her head before closing the door behind her. I offered to walk her to wherever she was going but she shrugged me off and I knew not to insist. I sat on the low brick fence at the front of her block waiting for a taxi and watched her walk down the hill towards the shops. She walked like a woman being watched.
As I climbed into the taxi and told the driver where I was headed, my phone vibrated with a text from Lana. HAPP BIRTHDAY X sheâd rushed out her message.
âFourâ
I woke to feel my motherâs body curled in tightly behind me. I couldnât remember everything that had happened
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